Universal Reading 10 Dec – 16 Dec 2018

Universal Reading
For the week of December 10 through December 17, 2018.
Animal Tarot Cards by R. V..

Queen of Winter
“All your life experiences have prepared you for this moment of truth!
It’s time to declutter your home, clear away situations that aren’t working for you anymore, and disengage from people who create more drama than happiness.”
As you do this understand that you are able to truly walk away from no one. We are all One. We affect one another and our thoughts toward one another, even if separated, effect one another. Nothing can interfere with this. It is an eternal, universal truth.
So, as you declutter, be sure to do it with love.
Share your unneeded belongings with someone who will benefit from them and give them with joy.
Let go of the entanglements of relationships that are sour and do so as gently as possible while sending forgiveness and positive energy as you go your seemingly separate ways.
Do not hold onto the baggage of a grudge. Lay it in the lap of Christ’s Guilty Conscience and forgive the innocent Son of God for believing He needs to suffer.
Let the Holy Spirit transmute your emotions. You might send them into the earth where she may likewise transmute them into something positive in the world.
This suit happens to represent thoughts. This is where what you choose to do really matters.
Humor that is insightful and generous good-nature helps you be resilient, like the leopard.

King of Winter
Humpback Whale
“At this time it’s very important that you communicate clearly, be objective, and act as professionally as possible.
If you need advise, seek out the most experienced expert you can find.”
Be impartial and unemotional.
Wow, this reminds me of what I am doing with my writing. Though the content could be powerfully emotional, I am able to write it the way I am because I am being impartial.
It is just a story. An awareness is is different than being entangled or even engaged in something.
Your life is just a story that you agreed with Christ’s Guilty Conscience to fulfill. Joys or sorrows, you materialized are “simply” His desire to be punished for an impossible transgression.
Now utilize what you have learned from life to deliver The Son.
Prove His innocence by letting go of all misconceived notions about life and let Spirit guide you into the light.
Once again this is thought process. Whales are thought to be able to communicate with other whales thousands of miles away, even as they are considered rather solitary in their life styles.
What you are thinking is sending vibrational currents throughout the world.
And you do not even need to know what you are thinking to be doing so. This is why seeking to understand yourself is one of life’s greatest opportunities and rewards.

Eight of Winter
“It’s so easy to convince yourself that you’re trapped when you really aren’t. Trust that God will lift you to new heights and give you greater self-confidence if you affirm your freedom.”
Along the same lines as the other two cards and Winter/Thought as well.
Maybe the letting go in relationships has more to do with where we think we are rather than where we truly are. What if we spoke freely (and kindly) as ourselves and let “nature take its course”? Then do not beat yourself up and second guess yourself if it becomes obvious you need to part company.
Eight is an action number. Perhaps suggesting that our thoughts and actions need to go hand in hand?
Live your life fully moment to moment free of the illusion of the trap, if only in your heart, and sing the song of forgiveness for none can stifle the Son of God.

Six of Autumn
“Your success and prosperity have allowed you to pay off debts, acquire wise loans, or receive a grant or scholarship. In return for Heaven’s blessings, be sure to share the wealth with others through donations of time or money to reputable charities.”
Six is harmony. In ACIM Jesus teaches that giving is receiving. It is important that once you have claimed your own space and identity that you are willing to let others have the same. Abundance is something that is shared and transient, not hoarded and stock-piled.
The Autumn suit is Earth or temporal things. To share our abundance in whatever means we have is to give thanks and witness that we are One and not separate.
Doubt not that you have much to give to the Son of God. Forgiveness itself of the impossible has no monetary equivalent. Time, a smile, a compassionate look or squeeze of the hand, material things, and financial assistance, when able, will simply return to you multiplied. Be sure to give in faith. It is not your responsibility how others use what you share.
The intent of the developer’s of this deck suggest that this card needs to nose about for truth in those you give to. In ACIM we are taught that giving is always done to the self anyway. Do not get caught up in thinking you have to judge other’s intentions.
If your gut says “share this”, then do it. That is an inner guidance given by Spirit that you can trust. Do not worry about the outcome.
Like a writer or any other artist, your responsibility is simply to be your best, which is what the other cards in this reading were asking you to become aware of.

17 The Star
17 = 8 = Action
“You are about to take a big leap forward with your life. Worry will be replaced with optimism, fear with hope…and joy is coming home to roost!”
The orange feathers of the oriole symbolize a positive future on the horizon.
Letting go of the baggage of thoughts that bind you to the false world of separation and challenge will leave you free to see The Son of God in all that you experience.
We are on the verge of stepping into a very beautiful place. Don’t let headlines cause you to tremble and despair. You have not been forgotten and your Heavenly Father desires to bless you. Open your eyes to that witness.

A beautiful message of hope and love for The Son of God, the Christ Consciousness that we are.
Feminine thought in Queen of Winter to put one’s house in order.
Male thought represented in King of Winter understanding our ability to communicate across seemingly large divides.
Then action in our thoughts represented by realizing we are not in the cages we have devised in our minds and trapped as we suppose.
The material manifestation of understanding these principles comes as we share our gifts and talents with those in our realm of influence.
Which I must say, even clarity in our own minds, moves all of us into a higher frequency of compassion and acceptance of self and the Whole.
Then the promise that we are on the path to a brighter future as a society.
Do not confused by outward appearances. It is how we respond to appearances that will make the difference in the world and we are going in the right direction.

This is my witness,
Till next time, God Bless, Namaste~

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A Smile Is Just A Smile or Is it?

There was a young man with a orange wrapping talking about smiles and not worrying. I have looked at this instruction from a lot of directions and I have tried to implement it at various times of my life.

These are some comments that I had thought to put on that post but I want to make it clear that ALL GOOD has its place and should be respected and given thanks for.

So instead, I thought I would put the post here and send out the energy that way.

I wish that the results of a SMILE where always good.
I have learned that deceit can lie behind the smile.
Betrayal. It can hide the one who has sold his soul for the illusions of the world.
As a woman I know that a smile can give others, men and women the wrong impression.
It can give the impression that you are to be used by them to fulfill their fantasies and delusions.
For some of us a smile upon our face is like an invitation for someone to knock it off our faces.
As any child in the presence of unhappy adults can attest to.
Smile has lost its savor for me while we roam in the sphere of mental illusion we are so fond of.
Yet truly one day the Child will be able to smile and The Father will be allowed to show forth His love.
Where will the discoveries come from if we turn away from that which offends and only offer a smile? Jesus said pray for those who spitefully use you. This keeps us aware and, at the same time, hopeful.

Now, I am not against smiling. I am just saying that we ought not to teach it as an end all be all. And let us respect people’s experiences. Sometimes things just hurt. That does not mean they have lost all hope. I wonder if we would not ease the challenges of the world if we were to let people be where they are emotionally? Understanding that Christ is the creator of this world helps us to lay it at His feet and forgive that which simply could not be as well.

We are so loved! This is my witness!

Till next time, God Bless, Namaste~

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Hi there, and a Universal Reading 2 Dec – 9 Dec 2018

2 December 2018
As a human being I am pretty well shot.
There is really no emotional cushion or padding to buffer my negotiations through the world.
It is my faith alone that gives me the ability to continue here among humanity.
Perhaps it always was.
I am a loner.
I do not mind that.
I like my own company.
I have a gift , and I do consider it a gift, of loving others and feeling of their potential and true selves.
I thought about changing the rating on my page.
I have no other intention than to give the world another perspective and if I swear while doing so, that is not going to offend me.
Words are only symbols and if that is the form of expression that needs to be released then so be it.
This has been a powerful year for me.
A lot of extremes and something that I know I have been preparing for throughout my life.
I will think back on the year 2018 as the year the world, and everything in it, died for me.
I do not speak English any longer, so be careful what you make of that statement.
It seems I cannot be in a group of people, or even one on one, and communicate.
We have no common ground, even though we may use the same symbols and language.
It takes listening with one’s heart and eyes and ears to the Spirit to communicate truly.
Most have no desire to take the time for such “Nonsense”.
Do this page will be my platform for my testimony and my work.
I heard it said once that work is love in action and I like to think of what I do in that way.
I did finish a book this year.
Saving Christ; It’s in the Cards
I even sent a book proposal to a publisher, but my journey sucked the heart of me right out from under me and I had no emotional strength left to promote it.
Nonetheless, I will continue as long as I have breath left in this shell.
I hope to complete another by Christmas.
I am not concerned overly about the editing and that may offend some.
I know it is not in my best interest as a marketer of my own goods.
But that is not my objective; the making of a buck that evaporates and needs to be replenished.
My objective is to save a life.
One life.
A life of which we all are a part and to which we all owe all our existence and our devotion.
My faith fits in no singular religion and has components of most of the major religions of which I am aware.
I study continually.
It has become a lifestyle for me.
There is no show I watch or conversation I have or walk I take that does not teach me of eternal principles and the perceptions of humanity and God.
I have another story that must be told of how I got to this place on the other side of the world.
Really the focus will be why, in hindsight, I believe I joined The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (commonly known as Mormons) at 27 years of age and why at 62 I have no place there.
To these things do I commit my life.
As a mother of six live births and numerous grandchildren and great-grandchildren, I do not take on this lifestyle without some uncomfortableness.
I have great compassion and empathy for their circumstances and, while the world would offer me many roads that appear to be of more help to them, I cannot in good conscience veer from the path that I believe the Holy Spirit prepared me for and leads me on.
Like others who have chosen to serve the whole rather than individuals I have no doubt that plenty of derogatory attitudes and statements will come my way.
But as long as the angels sustain me and I have worth here in this shell, I will be about My Father’s Work and will rely on His sustaining Hand.
My gifts are primarily in the kinesthetic and cognoscente realm, with occasional audio that frightened me.
So I am not a seeker of signs and my philosophies and understandings come with a lot of prayer and pondering.
I have learned to trust the witness of the Holy Spirit as my guiding light.
To me sight alone is illusive, whereas the feelings of spirit are true guides.
I am aware that my religious and personal history will be distasteful to some.
My language and my willingness to read Tarot cards, for instant, will turn off many others.
My goal is not to find a demographic I fit in, though I know very well that if I would define an audience I would have a better chance of getting my message out.
I believe it will either be churches or colleges.
Perhaps I would be more suited to the realm of what it looks like when somebody goes off the deep end or takes their faith too seriously.
You know, sort of an example of the “religiously insane”.
It matters not the labels, nor the duration of time I am given.
I know that I know what I know and that it serves you, me, and God to share it by whatever means I am able to.
Everything has already been resolved.
We just have to do our part to wake up to it and then share that witness with others so their path may be lightened and lighter.
I plan to prepare a routine weekly program that may be counted on now that I feel I have a bit more stability in my life emotionally.
I can only do my best and that is what I commit to.
Tsunami’s hit all of us if we live long enough and sometimes that is the norm.
I am talking about emotional tsunami’s.
The more I understand about life the more I believe that it is the norm.
(I do recognize that some of us have physical tsunami’s or horrific criminal tsunami’s. My personal journey has been more on the emotional side so it is to that I will primarily speak.)
I also believe that we have taken on the task voluntarily and that we have the tools, aids, and guides to see to our task.
The body and all of its trappings are the camouflage that we must get through to achieve our divine calling.
It is often referred to as the ego.
This word ego, like God, have some really strong meanings in the minds of those who hear them, but I would ask you to breath and make a space where the Spirit may teach you what I am trying to share, rather than jumping to conclusions and dismissing what I have to share.
There are subtleties that Spirit longs to share with us if we are only willing to give Him a chance.
May God’s will be done and we be able to weather the storm that will kick up as together we endeavor to gently waken the sleeping Christ.
Universal Reading
For the week of December 2 through December 9, 2018.
Archangel Power Tarot Cards by R. V.
Knight of Ariel
There is a lot of work to do, just deal with it.
The details will give us focus and will reveal the plan, each has their part.
We are watched over by the Holy Spirit with benevolence and confidence in our success.
19 The Sun
Life is wonderful!
We thrive through the power of our minds uniting.
We each have the power to inspire success in one another!
Look for, and be aware of
Eight of Ariel
Take pride in doing excellent work!
Perfect practice changes unrewarding habits.
There is always something new to learn.
Keep your eyes and heart open to the possibilities!
King of Gabriel
Keep your eyes on the big picture.
See your experience with the eye of hindsight and magnify your understanding.
Let it inspire the motivation that comes from genuine concern for others.
Personal leadership is expected and wanted.
Do not be afraid of your own creativity or opinions of others.
They may well be looking to you.
20 New Beginnings
Starting a new life.
It begins with you and your choice of perspective.
A forgiving and compassionate review of personal and world past is required to move forward.
This is your moment.
You have been prepared (and preparing) for this very time.
We know there is work and we have a guide.
Take heart, there is joy and the valiant traveler walks in it.
Take pride in excellent skills of observation and assessment, being open to opportunities to grow as directed by your own inner voice.
Set your eyes on the big picture and do not be afraid to lead by directing your own life and thoughts.
You have been prepared for this very moment where the past no longer harms or holds you and possibilities are endless.

Till next time, God Bless, Namaste~

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Universal Reading Wisdom of Avalon ‘Oracle’ 14 November 2018

I wanted to do a universal reading for the Christ Consciousness to see where we are and in hopes of giving comfort to a fearful world. This is who I am today, in my heart. May someone hear it who cares and is willing to look beyond the illusion.

5 Card Spread by Christa-Ann Faith Godsdaughter
1st Restating the Situation
This card questions our means of communication. Who have you felt prompted to contact?
(Curiously, my studies this day found me committing to one form of communication above all others. I posted my notes from my studies below the reading. It speaks of the ultimate attraction of The Father to The Son and how the Holy Instant reveals it and so much more.)

2nd Personal Ego
This card invites you to reach out in love. May I suggest to reach out in remembrance of the love of The Father for the Son? Which is present when you look in the mirror or anywhere else.

3rd United Christ Ego (Christ’s Consciousness, if you will)
This is a reminder that all things change. (In this place of Mystery and Illusion.) It is the unchangeable that we want to seek if we would stand on solid ground wherever we may be. This card suggests changes for the better. Thus, a good omen for the Whole, which how could it be otherwise, for God is in charge.

4th Messages from the Guides, Higher Self, Master’s, (for me it’s Jesus)
The Hawk
Messages to be delivered to aid us in our quest. Keep your eyes, ears, and heart open to receive what is being delivered. Perhaps in our quest for “The Age of Benevolence”, meaning kindness among those who make up The Body of Christ, which is all of us and has nothing to do with “accepting Jesus” in the traditional sense, but would include him in The Whole Body of Christ.
*Caveat here; I do accept the teaching of Jesus. I just no longer accept them in the same way they are traditionally taught. And I do see him as the first to walk here on earth and accept the love that The Father offers The Son. He is my Lord, my Brother, my Friend.

5th Messages from the Divine Whole or Ultimate Outcome
The Wind Faery
Our thoughts and words create our reality. This card also invites intellectual analysis. Where do our thoughts travel? Are they negative or in remembrance of the Love of God for His Son?
By the Holy Spirit we will be gently led back into full remembrance. This is something we can speed up by being an active participant in.
Choice is always present. How we view our situation or the situation of the neighbors, the country, or the world is always up to the individual. You are an important part of the whole. Do not deny or give that up.
Give thanks for being able to remember the Father’s Love for His Son and Forgive the Son for his confusion. We are heading into a beautiful place. God Speed and Blessings for us all!

URTEXT Study Notes *The notes preceded by an asterixis are mine, not from the text.

URTEXT pg 315
Beyond the poor attraction of the special love relationship (*This especially speaks to the romantic partner, but it includes all other relationships as well that we would feel has “special” meaning.), and ALWAYS obscured by it, is the powerful attraction of the Father for His Son. (*This refers to God, The Father and His Son, Christ, which together, with Jesus, we are.)

There is no OTHER love that can satisfy you, because there IS no other love. (*To deny this love is to block love in all of our relationships. Outside of this the EGO seeks special relationships for what it believes will bring personal gain.)

This is the ONLY love that is fully given, AND FULLY RETURNED.

Being complete, it asks nothing. Being wholly pure, everyone joined in it HAS everything.

It is impossible for the ego to enter into any relationship without anger,
for the ego believes that ANGER MAKES FRIENDS. This is NOT its statement, but it IS its purpose.

For the ego REALLY BELIEVES that it can get, and KEEP, by MAKING GUILTY. This is its ONE attraction.

An attraction so weak, that it would have no hold at all, except that NO ONE RECOGNIZES IT.

For the ego always SEEMS to attract through love, and has no attraction at all to anyone who perceives that IT ATTRACKS THROUGH GUILT. (*This gives me more understanding about the “clicks” and the feeling of not fitting in. What is going on is that if we are not willing to yield to the guilt format we will be excluded and shunned.)

The sick attraction of guilt MUST be recognized FOR WHAT IT IS.

For, having been made REAL to you, it is essential to look at it clearly,
and, by withdrawing your INVESTMENT in it, to LEARN TO LET IT GO.

No-one would choose to let go what he believes has value.

Yet the attraction of guilt has value to you ONLY because you have NOT looked at what it IS, and have judged it as valuable COMPLETELY in the dark.

As we bring it to light, your ONLY question will be why it was you EVER WANTED it.

You have NOTHING to lose by looking open-eyed at this, for ugliness such as this belongs not in your holy mind.

The host of God CAN have no REAL investment here.


God Bless


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Love That Comes in Times of Trauma


One thing that I learned in my trek out west to see my birth mother is that I was the one who separated us. I would not give her an inch.

At ten or so, I had to keep my sanity stable within myself because I knew that no one out there was going to take care of me. Four hundred Volkswagen Beetles were counted that day in LA some fifty years ago.

I could not tell you a word she said but I know that she tried to talk to me for the length of the time it took me to count those cars. I did not dare listen. I was in survival mode.

I see this in the eyes of my grandchildren today as well. They know that I cannot step in and save them from their parents mistakes or what is going on behind closed doors with those who think it is okay to manipulate others for their own gratification. Big things or little, they know they are on their own.

This world is not one where we can unite. We need to understand that, accept it, and move into a new state of “being”.

Do you suppose the same mental protectors are in gear today? I learned to listen to my gut and my heart, an inner voice of survival, instead of in a place where community rules.

I was lucky. I have been a loner and though I “miss” others, I do not mind.

I do not fare well in civilized company because I do not choose to walk to a civilized, agreed upon tune. This is drawn up by the largest or wittiest dog in the pack and we all step in line or we are cast out.

At the death of my daughter her father’s side of the family were willing to forget all and let me be a part of their community. I could not do it, not even for the sake of a son, a daughter, and several grandchildren and great-grandchildren.

I knew who ran that ship and I would not bow to her interpretation of what I was. Sadly, I blew up and burned bridges at the funeral. That does not mean that I am not still an influence in all their lives and that they do not watch me, because they do.

Upon my return from the coast, my children (the ones who maintain contact) acted different toward me. They seemed kind, they seemed genuinely glad to have me here. This is not the norm. The “I love you” was sincere and not a formality. I had to hear it twice when I heard it.

A gesture of kindness, “let me get this for you” was given to me, as if I was a welcome visitor in their home. I was even paid compliments by someone who could not stand my company for twenty years.

I was not use to such behavior from them and I needed time to regroup from the challenge of being homeless and the diverse ways that humanity belittles and imprisons itself that I witnessed first hand on the coast.

I spent hours in the company of family as if I was a welcome guest and then I turned the tables. I expressed distress at a turn of events that, well, that just did not matter in the scope of things. I had even been told about the situation and okayed it before. Can you believe I wounded an animal, accidentally-but still, in the process? Good Grief!

I think this outburst may have occurred to allow me to distance myself from what was going on. An inclusion to the “family structure” that I was not willing to accept until I understood the terms of that inclusion.

While reflecting on why there was a shift in behavior on behalf of the others, I realize it may have something to do with the scales of justice that hang in the subconscious of Christ’s Guilty Conscience.

If someone has been wounded enough we can show them kindness because we then can beat ourselves up because we (or someone) caused them harm somewhere before. It is sort of a kindness balancing act that really does not last, but makes us feel good for the moment.

I do not mean this to be offensive or say that I did not appreciate the sense of “inclusion” that was offered me. I just mean that I want to be in a safe place emotionally and this world without acknowledgement of Christ does not offer me that.

Freedom, kindness, and appreciation without Christ being pre-eminent (meaning superior to or notable above all others; outstanding ……per the College Dictionary 4th Edition) in the world is tough to live by. It makes you an outcast.

I do not know if my words make any sense at all. I am nearing a point where I really do not care if I get anyone to listen, I just want to focus on keeping myself in the “zone” of witnessing Christ. Yet, as God gives me breath I will not give up trying no matter how overwhelming the situation looks.

A Course In Miracles, chapter thirteen, says that the reason the ego attempts to kill the Son of God is because His guiltlessness is blasphemous to God. So do not be guiltless is the lesson.

We speak of righteousness and doing well and achieving, but truth is we will not allow it.

And sitting in a ivory tower, looking at the rest of the world, saying “I got here, why can’t you?” is false in the highest degree because there is no duality, we are only One.

We believe if someone has enough trauma in their life, “maybe they are a sinner just like me, so now I can forgive them”. Or better yet, if I forgive a real “witch”, I will be the better man. Either way we have placed one on a pedestal and one in a ditch. We stand uneven in our association.

This is not of God.

It explains why you can never go back home. You have stepped outside of the community balancing poles. It also explains clicks and how you cannot “fit in” if you have not grown up there. You just have not paid your dues by being trashed well enough.

I have been so naïve for so many years. I am grateful for the understanding that Spirit has given me. I do not want to beat anybody up and I do not want to be beaten up.

We are told that we have to look at how things are really, in the now, and then recognize that we are eternal beings and always perfect and in a state of grace (ACIM Chapter 13). This will help us “see” the illusion that we are living.

True Love of God and amongst each other does not come and go depending on how we behave. It is always, because we are always.

If the welcome the children gave me was sincere, time will show it. Sadly, I sense it may only be a gesture given to appease their conscience at how my siblings and family out west treated me and will go with the wind, as did the welcome at my daughter’s funeral.

It is okay. It will not change my feelings toward them, nothing could. It will not change the fact that I know who they really are and who we are to each other. It will have an impact on my behavior though.

I do not know how I will proceed from here. I know that to see Christ (I do not mean Jesus alone) everywhere and to have knowledge of being Christ (each of us is) and forgiving Christ (ourselves and all else) for any discomfort that is outside the sphere of joy is my objective, goal, and truth.

The only true communication is that which is by the Spirit and that acknowledges Christ in all things.

Indeed, the old me is dead, I want no claim on her. I see her faults and I will see more. As I interact among people, I see how what I am and who I am, could be seen as so egotistical, greedy, pious, and maybe at times, just plain mean.

I am not sure how to change that witness it may seem others are getting. I know that beating myself up and playing the martyr is not it. I cannot deny my own basic needs and sanity for some preconceived sense of sins I need to pay for.

No, I need to take care of myself physically, emotionally, and spiritually and give God the glory.

I distance myself, not because I do not love, but because I wish to do no harm. To stay in my own space and forgive Christ, bearing witness, where I can, of God’s Love for Him is all I know to do.

Love in the societies we have, without knowledge of Christ, is just another form of attack and manipulation.

I was blessed as a child to feel the love of those who harmed and betrayed me and I chose to keep that witness. I still have it today. I keep my safe distance though.

I want Christ alone and I want to give Him to God’s love. It gets easier, day by day for me to see how confused and confusing the world is.

I understand more about how it has been for the children I raised, especially from the perspective I gave them of being peacemaker in an attacking world. I really had no idea what life was and only may only be getting glimpses of it now.

I am not sure if the world will understand what I am trying to give them, but I will use all my energy to share the Love of the Father for the Son. The Holy Spirit will bear witness to those willing to receive it.

Till next time
God bless us every One, Namaste~

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Thoughts on Lost City of Z

“I watched this 2017 movie twice and feel very reflective.

The dedication that this man/couple/family had to a cause is incredible.

The dedication they had as a family is really something to ponder.

My understanding is that they had a burning desire to see that the native people were not destroyed by the understanding of the finding of a huge civilization before the “known world”, especially when it was one of a different complexion than “proper” society of the day was.

Man’s forms of segregation are so diverse and bizarre unless of course, it is the one you are entrenched in. We live without thinking of what it is we are living because the needs of the moment sadly take over all our energies and attention.

Even in meditation, the goal is not to think and I believe this is a sad thing. I would rather see meditation and prayer used to identify the observer and higher self in each of us that allows us to step out of the moment or circumstances and look at the big picture.

That is not to say that I discount the wonderful work of those who teach to be in the moment and aware of our surroundings and those around us. The higher self may be compared to the Holy Spirit or spiritual guidance that humanity has available to them.

I do believe that this family understood and took hold of each of these concepts very well. They could both see the big picture and respect the moment and people that they were with when they were privileged to be with them.

Perhaps this is a reflection of the teachings of Eckhart Toolle’s as understood by those who prepared the movie, script, and book written in 2009 which is on my to-do list. I myself am only now reading a couple of his books, The Power of Now and A New Earth, Awakening to Your Life’s Purpose.

It will take further research for me to get insight on that question, however, Toole’s work is so well known it is not hard to envision its influence.

In any case, it is a brilliant work in my opinion.

My fantasy of what happened to the father and son is that they chose to stay with the people to give them understanding and skills to maintain their lifestyle without being wiped out. Perhaps the son found a sweetheart and a family began which the father could not abandon and which would only assist with their cause. That being to find the lost civilization and give human history further light.

As a long time student of The Book of Mormon, it is delightful to see physical evidence uncovered for the populations who dwelt on this land long before the Europeans came on board. Populations that were very industrious in commerce and trade and all things considered civilized, including war. (My thoughts are in no way reflective of the teachings of the Church and I find I no longer feel comfortable in any congregation of any sort.)

It was the way that the movie portrayed the dedication of the family to what they believed was true and that it would serve the good of humanity as a whole, therefore it was worth whatever temporary challenges would be placed upon them that touched me.

I find myself in a similar state at this time. My beliefs, specifically the belief that there are answers that we have not quite found yet because of the state of our focus as societies and individuals leaves me on the outside of literally all that I interact with save nature herself.

Some may suspect I am simply lazy in wanting to devote my time and energy to such things. Some may think it is a futile pursuit because no one will listen anyway. And some may suspect I am simply insane.

This may not be unlike the thoughts about a man who would leave his family to face the dangers and harshness of the Amazon in Percy Fawcett’s day.

Like him, my walk has to be mine and I must live in the integrity of what I believe. I believe that God Is and if He is then the trauma we endure is not real and I will spend my life lifting up the Christ to His Father’s Love in prayer and action. Whether anyone understands me or not it will impact the consciousness of the Whole and begin the beginning of the end of this “false” world.

There is not a day goes by but that several things bear witness to me that I have found something out about the world that will bring about its demise and allow us to create a new environment for ourselves and those who come after.

I seek to show by how I live my life that I do not value suffering in any form. I do not believe that humanity was meant to suffer. I believe we will awaken to this truth and there will be none without abundance in all its forms.

And our days will be spent in remembrance of Christ and rejoicing in the blessings of His Father whose Child we are, as a Whole.

Till next time,

Be well, God bless, Namaste~




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Chapter Seven

Afterward: Now What?
Even when flying above the clouds it is easy to dip too close to the mountaintop.

From the beginning of the trip to the end, I got to listen to the radio, Serius XM. Love it!. I had lots of choices but they spoke of things that did not remind me of who I am, nor did they make me think of Christ. Today I would say that I heard the message of the “Christ Guilty Conscience” filled with joys that end and sorrows and longings we experience along the way.

Like a child who has lost his way, we sing of things that appear to have priority in our existence at the moment, forgetting that our Father and complete well-being are so very close by.

I am not trying to denounce all the incredible talent that has been shared over the years, nor am I saying that they have not helped humanity cope and express its joys and sorrows. What I am saying, is that I believe that there is a higher plateau that we might reach for and that we are meant to be a part of.

It was after crossing those incredible mountains at a rest stop in Colorado that I wrote fourteen songs that helped me express the wonder, majesty, and awe that I had experienced on the road that day. It was an effort to process the overwhelm from the breath-taking beauty of the Rocky Mountains. I want to share those with you as I write this chapter.

Beauty and Majesty of the Earth

Ocean Waves
Sea Weed
This is God
This is the power of God
This is the power of Me


When people live in a world of hierarchy they are intimidated by someone with the strength of character because they feel inferior (and sadly, often inside they attack themselves even as they strike out with catty remarks to the other).

It is not the fault of the person, it is part of the poison of the illusion of separation.

We also feel that if someone has confidence they must be uppity or be judging us. This is not because they are judging us. It is because we are judging ourselves as inferior on some level.

Might I call this the “Christ’s Guilty Conscience” level, which I also equate with ego? 

Forgive me for speaking of Christ in the context of a negative. Remember that positive/negative is ego creation, for only God exists and God is Good. God is Love. All there is is love.

The ego (Christ’s Guilty Conscience) has created a self-punishing existence that is unreal.

Even romance and copulation (sex) are weak attempts to make a mockery of what we believe that we are.

Each generation hoping the next will be better by allowing them to stand on our shoulders and backs or merely working for the survival of the fittest as we simply prey upon our own psychologically or physiologically. We all do it in some form or another because we believe, erroneously, that this is the extent of our existence.

We think that our sense of inferiority comes from outside ourselves, society, peers; or if we cannot identify anyone right now it must have one from our parents or caregivers from our formative years.

What if it actually comes to us in our “fabrication”, in our subconscious DNA and the role that we play in this dream/illusion/nightmare of Christ’s to give us a witness of the need for all the punishment and suffering that we place upon ourselves?

This to testify of the reality of our separateness.

Your role may be that of a girl who uses cutting to claim power in a world where she feels she has no power. Or maybe you are an educated and hard-working man who has reached all of his goals and faces the reality that he cannot take his possessions with him once he leaves his body.

Maybe you are a child who is experiencing health issues or hunger with a fierce gnawing, rather than witnessing that God Is and that you have all that you desire.

Maybe you are longing for a relationship that has not manifested. Whatever your role, circumstances, or situation, I believe it was created by Christ with your permission.                                    


Everything that has any form of manifestation
is a manifestation of Christ.

All form of emotion, thought, action,
is a manifestation of Christ.

He is the only relationship that we need to get right.
Then all else falls into place and is understood.

I hope that the songs I wrote in simplicity are so that with repetition the message of its truth will be taught by the Spirit.


As much as the Law of Attraction teaches that what we desire we will experience in our future, I believe Christ still blocks the way ultimately, or at least until we release Christ from His Guilty Conscience.

One reality that proves this in this linear world is that we are still going to die.

The witness that Christ holds the key and Jesus will help us find it has burned in my heart since I was a small child.

Thinking about the conference I attended, I recall that only one person clapped when Brendon said God helped him with things, it was me.

I was surprised at that, yet with it, I got a personal response from Brendan himself, as he looked the other way of course.

He said thank you to me for acknowledging his respect for God here.

I thought it odd and powerful that as a group we did not seem comfortable to acknowledge God in our lives.

Interestingly none of us clapped when he spoke of Tony Robbins either. Sadly that included me this time. Tony has helped me and others in many ways over the years and I would have adored seeing him there, yet I did not clap for the man. How crazy is that!

There seemed to be an interesting undertow happening in the room. Each one was there passionate about something and yet we did not meld or even mix, contrary to what we seemed to suggest to Brendon from what I could tell. We each had our story but the gelling did not seem to happen.

A beautiful lady beside me made a point of playing with her phone that had a photo of her and Depok Chopra on it. When I did not comment she disappeared.

It seemed like we were all looking for our niche but did not really have anything that drew us together as a whole. This made me sad. The facade was there of music, hype, and volume, it felt like a concert and had a fun energy. I just did not feel what I had been hoping for.

Sadly, there have often been times when I felt like that in church over the years.

Where is the ability to speak of what we really are that will allow us to let our guard down and let others know who we really are and what we have to share?

Understanding and acknowledging “Christ’s Guilty Conscience” may allow us to open that door to one another.

I believe it is a sign of the peer pressure or desire, even among those who are supposed to be so enlightened, (myself included) to wait on the affirmation of others first.

We tend to be afraid to be true to our own personal witness of something. 

I do not think that we should be concerned with this though.

There is a timing factor that the Spirit guides us with. The shift in understanding will not be altered fully, or should I say significantly, until there is a percentage of individuals who are ready to receive it.

That time is coming rapidly, even as Jesus said some 2000 years ago. We may rely on the Spirit’s wisdom for the real unveiling.

We can take the time to look within ourselves and see The Christ and make room for Him to reveal Himself within us, for He is there. He is what we truly are and all of creation calls out.


See me!
Know me!
I am
I am
I am
I am God!

See me!

Know me!

I am

I am

I am

I am You!

I do not really understand why the readers of  A Course In Miracles have missed this concept. I suspect it is because of the way I approached it and because I did not listen to others views of the teachings.

(I was reading in ACIM today, September 7, 2018, five months after I had completed the writing of this book. I see now why it has been missed. Brothers and sisters, I do not claim to have all understanding. Though what I understand grows in leaps and bounds. We are in an insane situation and we are awakening. I simply seek to bear testimony of what I understand today and look forward to what I will learn moving forward.)


As I think of what I have had and what I have not had, I sometimes feel low.

When I remember who I truly am, I recall that all that has ever been experienced by anyone is mine.

All the trauma and all the joy, all the lack and all the abundance, it is mine, as I acknowledge that I am The Christ, as are all others.

All the closeness and all the aloneness felt in the world is mine.

And it will all become a dream when we awaken fully to the witness that we are in fact The Whole Complete Christ.


I am nearly over-whelmed
with the beauty and majesty that is creation
~the leading edge~
learned by the Spirit
breathed in as knowledge
Questions all dissipate
and only awe and beauty remain.

There was a time when I understood “going with the flow” to mean being cool and letting life happen.

Today I understand it to be a very intentional choice to direct one’s thoughts into creation and the light of truth instead of feeding the fabrication.

Studying Abraham Hicks did a lot to help me understand this. He taught us the Law of Attraction, even though it is claimed by other sources.

I believe the Law of Attraction is a current resurrection of the Law of the Covenant.

This is a Law given by Christ (Jehovah), through Moses, to His children and useful here, in the illusion.

With God, things are as you would have them be for there is no time, there is only being. It is here in this density place that we perceive choice and that we may choose what we will participate in.

Forget not that we have come with the instructions from “Christ’s Guilty Conscience” to play a role of unworthiness and suffering.

Because we are also of The Father we have the capacity to counter that or make it so that the roles we play do not define us and therefore do not continue to confuse us and keep us in the chain of suffering.

Christ will be set free as we show Him that His “sin” (or confusion about being separated from God) has no effect on us.

Abraham Hick’s work will do a lot to bring comfort to humanity and allow them to handle the psychological chaos that will come as we enter into an understanding of who we really are and the pendulum swing of extremes that may occur with that understanding.


Talking flowers,
singing flowers,
can you hear them?
Listen well.
The breeze,
the breath,
the warmth of the sunshine.
Singing are they,
just for you.


Mental health is a huge issue.

It was brought up for me with the shooting in Las Vegas just before I came through there on my way home from the conference.

It is brought up again as about the third or fourth shooting has occurred as I close the writing of this book.

I plead with you to give serious consideration to what I have shared because from what I have seen humanity does not have any real answer to mental illness.

All things entailing mental illness, depression and the use of anti-depressants to cope with life and keep up that “happy face”, addictions by all of us to endure the inhuman demands we place on ourselves and each other, power-wielding through racist acts or anti-racist angst against the supposed oppressing other, all of it bears witness of  “Christ’s Guilty Conscience” that believes we are worthy of punishment and death and not One Whole Son before God, The Ultimate and Eternal Father of The Christ and all of Creation.

We cannot consider ourselves lesser than or greater than another and be in alignment with our true status as a part of All That Is.


Euphoric orgasm
it all
the true understanding of Christ.
Let it Go
Let it Go

Lord Jesus Christ wants us to know that we are each Lord (creator of our reality), enter your name _____ (because you are a beloved part of The Son of God), Christ (He is your Father, as He is Jesus’).

You are capable of making choices and the choices manifest our experience.

The choice that you get to make is very simple.

Will you continue the punishment of Christ or will you embrace the love of God that is the component of what you are at your core.

You will be allowed either choice because God knows there is no truth in the lie, even though it causes great duress as we participate in it.

Your place of worthiness and inheritance awaits you, as the Prodigal Son. And great will be the rejoicing when you recognize where you have gone and that it is possible to return home.


There is order in the chaos,

(chorus, softly) A choice we make in every breath!

in the creation of the manifestation.

(chorus, softly) A choice we make in every breath!

Though not understood by the logical/ linear

(chorus, softly) A choice we make in every breath!

thinking of the human mind.

(chorus, softly) A choice we make in every breath!

We can end the suffering, it is a choice.

(chorus, bold and strong on the third repeat of the whole)

A choice we make in every breath!

There is nothing wrong with feeling entitled. We are. We just need to get “Christ’s Guilty Conscience” acknowledged and healed. Then we will have the abundance and prosperity that we seek all over the world and throughout galaxies’.

There will be no need to harm others or to puff ourselves up because we have been down-trodden by others or because we “know” we are not truly worthy of all that is handed to us so freely.

I will never figure out or resolve all of the incongruities in my life. Nor will anyone else.

To try and make sense out of this world is futile. It has no promise.

Only in Christ, is there promise of relationships that last, first with self, then with God, then with other parts of the Self that we each represent.

In this world, we want to claim family or country or race as our identity.

Each of these things is a part of our existence to allow us to meet God as we try to understand who we are and maybe only that!

They are symbolic of our relationship to the Father of Christ. And while they are to be embraced with joy and great attention, they are not the essence of what or who we are.

God does not give good to some and evil to others.

We are ONE and worthy of all that The Father has.

Think of a rogue god that has split personalities and you will begin to have a glimpse of what we really represent.

The spiritual view of needing another person (Savior) to lay all the problems at his feet is a temporary resolve at best.

It is still a view that denies our power and encourages us not to think for ourselves.

It may calm the wild thoughts and frustrations of the mind for a while, but it does not give a logical explanation to the question of why the suffering is there in the first place.

Christ is a jealous God for He feels unworthy.

His Father is not a jealous God.

He has not even blinked His eye. He has no concern His Son is not whole and pure and perfect. Christ is the one confused. 


Mighty tree, you witness to me of change,

transformation, of life, and of death.

Not an ending,

a continuation of being in whatever form

is laid aside in the escrow

of the vortex

of my creation.

We are One

my friend

my heartbeat

my dream of awakening.

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