Universal Reading 27 May 2019 through 2 June 2019

Archangel Power Tarot Cards by RV, Read by Yvonne

This is not “fortune telling”. It is a request for guidance such as one would seek through scripture study.

I read for the Christ Consciousness and the egos that follow Spirit (this is specifically in the second card). The third card represents the ego of the Whole Christ Consciousness and the final card is counsel from the Ascended Masters, my #1 guide being Jesus.

I do not read for the mass consciousness of the illusion, other than to point out the situation of the Whole Truth currently, which is found in the first card.

You are loved beyond your comprehension.

16 Change Your Life

As you come to know who you are through inner awareness the revelation of your place in God/Source/All that Is will be revealed and give you the courage to allow the change that is inevitable. Things will become clearer as you understand your role in the big picture, in the Whole.

Knight of Ariel

Trustworthy, understanding, devoted, funny, and the only Knight in the Major Arcana who stands still. It is time to prepare a new plan for life on earth. This is a cooperative venture. Each of us individually adds to the whole. Angels and others will assist us and ensure that the changes will bring blessings of abundance, in all its forms, for all.

Detail and creativity, combined with level headed decision making will ensure the safest and quickest route. Remember that Haste Makes Waste and Slow and Steady Wins the Race. Use logic as you move forward and do not get impatient.

Four of Michael

Four is foundational. Do not be afraid to rest. Everything is as it should be. Do not listen to the hype and those who would promote fear and chaos. Meditation and prayer for the development of the whole of creation will perform miracles. Everything is as it should be.

Restore yourself through rest, nature, and spiritual pursuits.

0 Leap of Faith

“Believe in yourself! Listen to your heart. Do what gives you joy!” This is the card of the beginning and the eternal as the 0 represents. You are of God. What He is made of, made you. There is no limit on what you can accomplish. Do not be afraid of yourself. Forgive everything. Start with a clean slate. Do not accept the concept of Karma and punishment. Move forward in confidence. Archangel Michael knows that time is not your master. Free yourself as you acknowledge the freedom of another and your part in the Whole to be of joy


The power is yours to bring about change. Spiritual insight that requires you to look at what cannot be seen or proven in the physical world will be your guide.

Faithful and devoted planning will serve you at this time as you reflect on how the world presents itself today and what you would like to see in the world. Golden opportunities will present themselves.

Quiet meditation, rest, time off will allow you to let go of the chains of stress and fear that you find yourself tempted with.

Leave the old behind and know that you are meant to have joy. Believe in yourself and follow your heart with confidence.

Everything is moving at its correct pace. Disruptions and chaos are given to open the eyes and hearts so that the path of joy may be discovered. Be of good cheer.

I pray this serves.

Till next time, God bless, Namaste~



Day 19 Urtext ACIM pg. 22 Christ, the Whole Consciousness Being Aware of Itself

28. Miracles honor man, BECAUSE he is loveable.
*Take that in for a minute. Humanity is loveable. That means you.
They dispel illusions about himself and perceive the light in him.
*You are not the unworthy, nasty you sometimes think you are.
They thus atone for his errors by freeing him from his own nightmares.
*synonyms for atone:
make amends · make reparation · make restitution · make recompense · make redress · make up for · compensate · pay · pay the penalty · pay the price · recompense ·
They release him from a prison in which he has imprisoned himself.
*This is what teachers of the Bible have missed because of authoritarian views.
By freeing his mind from illusions, they restore his sanity, and place him at the feet of Jesus.
*I suspect that Jesus is still speaking to them from where they are with their view of him in the context of the Bible as noted in the next comment.
(Biblical quotation re healing of devil possessed man, in which the sufferer was subsequently found healed in his right mind, and sitting at feet of Jesus. HS note.)
*Healed because he remembered and received recognition of his worthiness of love, through the Miracle.
(Tell B. man’s mind can be possessed by illusions, but his Spirit is eternally free. If a mind creates without love, it can create an empty shell. This CAN be possessed by evil. But the Atonement restores the Soul to its proper place. Unless there is emptiness there is no danger, and emptiness is a false creation. The mind that serves the Spirit is invulnerable.)
*Emptiness. I wonder if some of the suicides that happen, especially among our young, are caused by emptiness, which may bring about a loss of hope. Note that listening to the Spirit allows the mind to be invulnerable. I believe we may still feel sorrow at the illusion, but hope is never in question because of the witness of the truth and there is its strength.
29. The miracle restores the Soul to its fullness.
*Making it whole and united with God and all creation.
By atoning for lack, it establishes perfect protection.
*In other words, correcting the belief that humanity had separated from God and the sense of scarcity and vulnerability that brings was corrected.
The strength of the Soul leaves no room for intrusions.
*Identification of the meaning of Soul is important here. The Soul is the mind that is aware of its connection with God and all of creation.
The forgiven are filled with the Soul, and their Soul forgives in return.
*Just breath that in and out for a minute. Doesn’t it just feel good! The witness of the unity and oneness of all creation! That is a witness from the Holy Spirit.
It is the duty of the released to release their brothers.
*i. e. forgiven and released are used interchangeably here
The forgiven ARE the means of Atonement.
*The means are the same as the “way”, so the forgiven (those who receive that witness of the truth) are the means or way to Atonement. “I am the Way, Truth. and Light” may be thought of as the Whole of Christ Consciousness or creation rather than an individual.
Those released by Christ must join in releasing their brothers, for this is the plan of Atonement.)
*Christ, being the whole consciousness aware of itself.
On this Memorial Day Weekend I posted online:
Those released by Christ must join in releasing their brothers, for this is the plan of Atonement. Urtext ACIM pg. 22
*Christ, being the whole consciousness of creation aware of itself.
Even while we remember those who have fallen as they fought for freedom and those who have gone before who made it so our lives could be better or “be”; let us remember that all of us who survive are given the privilege to forgive ourselves and one another and recognize the great love by which we were created and which we are forever worthy of. In the name of Christ, Amen.
May this serve.
Till next time, God bless, Namaste~

She Asked About a Life Without Giving Birth

It was in a Facebook group I belong to. What about not having children?

These were my comments and more, of course. 😉

Debi Simmons I believe that living without children of your own can be a noble life. I believe caring for any of the many unwanted or orphaned children can be a noble life. I believe that having your own can be a noble, soul-crushing, humbling thing.

I had 6, all adults now. They took me places I never would have gone without them and taught me some things I am pretty sure I would not have been able to learn any other way.

There are no right or wrong answers. It is really a matter of the heart and the gut. Every life has its purpose and value. No matter what the choices are that you make in it, know that your child will not be yours to mold for they will have many other influences as well.

If you have them, try to be with them for the first 12 years if you can as a gift to yourself and a foundation for them.

Each child added to the home totally rearranges how things will move forward. It does not end with adulthood and grandchildren are a whole other dynamic.

I do know that split families can be very hard on everyone and it does not get played out “fairly” no matter what.

It is a matter for serious contemplation, meditation, and prayer.

Financial is an issue also, though that works itself out somehow in reality.

Children are a big commitment.

It has been challenging for me. But I would not change it for the world.

Sometimes I feel really sorry for them because I did not know what this world was before I had them. I found out I had really very little influence on how things turned out and was pretty naïve (and ignorant) about a lot of things.

The world is in a major shift right now of redefining what life is and how it is best lived.

Single, with a partner, or with children are all things of a very personal nature.

It is an exciting adventure however you choose to live your life.

Many blessings are to be found all along the way. If you can train your eye to see those you will be very rich indeed.

Best wishes whatever you decide.

And sometimes the decisions are beyond our control and that is okay too. 😉

Urtext ACIM pg. 177 Jesus’ words channeled by Helen Shcupnick in the 60’s. Jesus is speaking to Helen and Bill, her scribe and helper here:

You have said that, when you write of the Kingdom and your own creations which belong to it, you are describing WHAT YOU DO NOT KNOW.

*She (or they) were expressing confusion at how Jesus was describing existence.

This is true in a sense, but no more true than your failure to acknowledge the whole result of the ego’s premises.

*The ego being the false identity that breeds chaos and confusion for humanity.

The Kingdom is the result of premises, as much as this world is.

*This concept is vitally important. In a paragraph prior to this Jesus says that projection, while of the ego it creates fear, it is still a must in creation and is redefined by the Holy Spirit. Premises of the kingdom being previously defined truths and understandings asprescribed by God (Source, Universe, Creator, The Big Bang, etc.).

You HAVE carried the ego’s reasoning to its logical conclusion, which is TOTAL CONFUSION ABOUT EVERYTHING. 

*For those who ask “why the suffering”, here is your answer. The ego’s reasoning leads to contempt, jealousy, envy, scarcity, mayhem, murder; in the heart, if not in reality. Total confusion about everything.

But you do not really BELIEVE this, or you could not possibly maintain it.

*In other words, our souls are aware of the truth that we are eternal and blessed. The false ego just keeps us distracted with bells and whistles and so on that, we do not “get” it.

If you REALLY saw this result, you COULD not want it.

*Because we really want and desire abundance and joy, being that we are of God.

The ONLY reason why you could possibly want ANY part of it is because YOU DO NOT SEE THE WHOLE OF IT.

*Who takes the time to look at the big picture? Currently, we are either taught to see nothingness in the NOW or finger-pointing political, societal, or familial distractions. And then there is the fear of death and maintenance of the body that consumes us because we are currently convinced we must die.

So just where do I stand right now on the concept of new birth? Children?

I see life’s purpose as 1 forgiveness for our error in believing this nonsense and 2 clearing out the cobwebs of false identity and association that separate us from one another and from God, and 3 finding that still place inside that knows beyond a doubt so that this energy may fly through all confusion, dimensions, and time to correct the error of The Son.

I would almost say no more kids, period. They are not toys or puppies. Let’s take care of who is here and correct what is so out of place. Let’s get rid of the hatred and division, the lust and oppression, the depression and find the joy in being instead of grasping and flaying about, happy only when we convince ourselves we are not as “bad as” or “bad off as” that guy over there.

The only reason I say almost is because, just maybe, the next child born will have just the right personality, circumstances, and inspiration to get us out of this mess. I still lean to thinking we need to just stop and correct this situation. That does not mean annihilation and starting in the same confusion, it means taking the time to “wake-up”.

Someone has to do it. Will it be me? Will it be you?

Note this is my feeling about the matter today, this 24th day of May 2019.

Till next time, God bless, Namaste~


Universal Reading 20 May through 26 May 2019 Surprises!

Magical Unicorns Oracle Cards by D.V, Read by Yvonne

Forgive: It’s time to let go of anger or blame.

Blame and anger hold us back. Give your anger to the earth or the unicorns and let them neutralize that negative energy. Are you holding onto some guilt that you think you ought to be carrying? Do you wake up with that heavy feeling because a relationship of some kind has gone sour? Do not bring that into your new day.

Begin the day with gratitude. Thank your bed and the four walls that kept you dry and safe. Give thanks for the clothes on your back and food in your belly. The breath in your lungs means that this moment you can drop all the negatives and let the light and warmth in.

Happy Surprise: Something very good is about to happen!

Anticipation! Isn’t that half the fun of a happy surprise? Be in it now. Know that good things are coming your way. Be the magnet that attracts wonderful things.

So you have asked the universe for something and things are not going quite the way you planned. Be happy and give thanks anyway. The universe knows better than you how to give you what you want and need.

Listen to Your True Feelings: Don’t let others talk into doing something you know is wrong.

Now, this is not the same thing as accepting what the universe gives you in answer to your requests. It is about knowing your own truth. Do you know how you feel about things?

Do you know what you want out of life? Do you know where it is you hope to go? To find out you have to listen to your inner voice. Ask yourself these questions. Writing them down, even if you tear the paper up or erase the document allows you a chance to see it in a tangible way.

And it is not written in stone. Just be sure that you are heading in the general direction of where you want to go and are not just following the crowd or being bullied into a certain path.

Hello and Good-bye: You’ll soon see that this change will make things better.

“Make new friends and keep the old, one is silver and the other gold.” That is a Brownie song I use to sing. Old friends stay that way by the sharing of where you are now. And new ones bring growth and opportunity.

This card is full of positives in both directions and if you must say good-bye on a more permanent basis, at least as far as this linear existence goes, understand that there are good things to hold dear and the negatives you can let go of for everyone’s benefit.


Give away all shame, guilt, anger, and resentment. That was never part of who you really are. Forgive yourself and others so that you may see the joy in being.
Live in a state of anticipation of Happy Surprises! Celebrate every day and look for the gifts that it brings.

Listen to your feelings. Trust yourself. You are your own compass. Do not let others lead you into doing something that is wrong or does not feel right.
Have an attitude that invites change. It is going to happen anyway.

Besides, how are we to awaken, grow, and ascend to who we truly are without that invitation to let life come and go? It sort of shakes us up and allows us to see things in a different way. And there is so much to discover about who we truly are.

We are living in exciting times. We have the opportunity for growth that is tremendous. We have access to information and histories that allow us to use our intuition and common sense to make this a better world for all. There is much to look forward to.

I pray this serves to uplift and encourage you.

Till next time, God bless, Namaste~

Day 18 Urtext ACIM pg. 21 Miracles praise God thru men.

Day 18 Urtext ACIM pg. 21
26. Miracles praise God thru men.
*Because Miracles make us all equal and in remembrance of who we are IN God.
They praise God by honoring his Creations, affirming their perfection.
*I believe that this means the whole of Christ Consciousness.
They heal because they deny body-identification and affirms Soul-identification.
*Accepting our own divinity.
By perceiving the Spirit, they adjust the levels and see them in proper alignment.
*Of equal value before God.
This places the Spirit at the center, where Souls can communicate directly.
*Spirit alone can share truth from what I have seen.
Miracles should inspire gratitude, not awe.
Man should thank God for what he really is.
The Children of God are very holy.
The miracles honors their holiness.
 God’s Creations cannot lose their holiness, although it can be hidden.
*Hidden through ourselves and through the society that we are born into, etc..
The miracle uncovers it, and brings it into the light where it belongs.
*In other words, we are meant to remember our divinity.
Holiness can never be really hidden in darkness, but man can deceive himself on this point.
*Misperception is our challenge.
This illusion makes him fearful; because in his heart he KNOWS it is an illusion.
*Is it possible that this fear is what clouds the true communication between the Whole Consciousness of Mind of Christ?
Like all illusions, he exerts enormous efforts to establish their validity.
The miracle sets validity where it belongs.
Eternal validity belongs only to the Soul.
The miracle acknowledges only the Truth.
*I suspect that there was a lot of this discussion left out of the published ACIM because it was not really comprehended by Helen and Bill.
It thus dispels man’s illusions about himself, and puts him into communion with himself and with God.
Christ inspires all miracles, which are essentially intercessions.
*Christ, which means the whole of humanity, as The Son of God.
They intercede for man’s holiness, and make him holy.
*Intercede=to intervene on behalf of another. To clarify, miracles do not make him holy. They reveal his holiness.
They place man beyond the physical laws, and raise him into the sphere of celestial order.
.*There are really no “different orders” there is just one. It is man that divides things. There truly is one only one whole.
In this order, man IS perfect.
*This is who humanity truly is.
pg. 22
The Soul never loses its communion with God.
*The Soul meaning your true essence.
Only the mind and body need Atonement.
*I suspect that this is for time alone. In fact, Jesus does say in the course that the Miracle is for time, because in eternity it is not necessary or required. This is also how we are released from time here and now.
The miracle joins in the Atonement of Christ by placing the mind in the service of the Spirit.
*I tend to think of the mind of each of us as a muscle, or maybe a cell, in the body of Christ.
This establishes the proper function of mind and abolishes its errors.
*I am gaining a witness that it is the Holy Spirit that is the active part of the Godhead here. God IS. The Son Is, as well. It is the Holy Spirit that brings the two in alignment or brings The Son in remembrance of The Father. Bringing The Son back into eternity and out of time.
*Is it possible to go there in one’s heart, even while the body meanders along in time? I am beginning to suspect so. It is actually a joyful place to be.
Till next time, God bless, Namaste~

Meanderings Through a Difficult Time

I put this in my notes as How To Get Along With People. 

Urtext ACIM pg. 137

What you need to learn now is that only infinite patience CAN produce immediate effects.

This is the way in which time is exchanged for eternity.

Infinite patience calls upon infinite Love, and by producing results NOW renders time unnecessary.

*Is it possible that the world will have those who are translated in their midst in the “last days” and that they will be the ones who are capable of infinite patience with humanity, knowing it to be not what it portrays?

*Please bear with a personal story. I lived in a confused state about the world for many years. When I had children I stayed to see them through, even though suicidal thoughts followed me for years. I watched as choices were made that took them from me. I received a lot of emotional abuse and neglect from them. I am sure there are parents that can relate.

*As their children are becoming teens and adults, I am reminded of something that kept me alive when they were small. That I would not commit suicide because I did not want to be standing there in spirit and not be able to have any influence over them for good.

*Well, out of 6 live births, 3 of my children have shunned me completely. And the 4th has just informed me that I am not to communicate with her any longer. She has held me hostage with her daughter for 10 1/2 years. Never knowing when she would just up and pull her away. I could scream and shout and say how unfair this is. Demand to know what I did to deserve this and proclaim how cruel it is to her daughter, but what good would that do? Would it change anything? Or just give her reason to claim I am not stable?

*The point I am trying to make is that as I found this passage in ACIM I was comforted. I was led to understand that perhaps all that we can do in some cases is watch what humanity is doing to itself and know that it is not real. Perhaps that is what being the light means. And that others will find the courage to look within themselves to find this truth as well because of our example.

*This next paragraph brings me great comfort. It opens my mind about the witness and power of the Holy Spirit in a way I have not had in the past. Perhaps it is not so much what we do that matters here, as it is what we KNOW. That we KNOW that the following is true:

To say that time is temporary is merely redundant. We have repeatedly said that time is a learning device which will be abolished when it is no longer useful.

The Holy Spirit, who speaks for God in time, also knows that time is meaningless. He reminds you of this in every passing moment of time, because it is His special function to return YOU to eternity and remain to bless YOUR creations there.

He is the only blessing you can truly give, because He is so truly blessed. And because He has been given you so freely by God, you must give Him as you received Him.

*This brings to mind the story of a significant prophet in the Book of Mormon who sat on a hillside and watched as his entire nation destroyed itself in the Book of Ether. We are taught that the significance of this account was that the people had turned away from God and killed themselves off and that we should not do the same.

*I wonder though if the message of the story was that the prophet was to know that what God creates is not destroyable even by its own determination. And that they will simply keep returning to life’s stage until they are willing to understand that suffering is not of God.

*The last verse in that book reads, “Now the last words which were written by Ether are these: Whether the Lord will that I be translated, or that I suffer the will of the Lord in the flesh, it mattereth not, if it so be that I am saved in the kingdom of God. Amen.” (Ether 15:34)

*Today I am convinced that he would have been translated (which really only means having correct understanding of the nature of humanity) and perhaps he could have convinced the people to follow a higher path a bit sooner had he not been so focused on judging them and instead taught them that this wickedness and power hunger were not who they are.

*As a student of the Holy Spirit I strive to understand God’s interpretation of the world, not my own in my ego. The peace that fills me comes from the witness that this has already been resolved, in fact, it has not really occurred. I am just working my way out of the dreamy web of confusion the ego has created.

*I know that this situation with my children is given to me so that I can have the courage to step out of “this world” and into the eternity that knows all is well. I am not talking about suicide here. I am living in a witness of what is actually true. That all is well and there is no lack or contention, only God, only Love.

I pray this serves to stimulate thought and not just enhance confusion.

Till next time, God bless, Namaste~

Universal Reading 13 May through 19 May 2019

Angels and Ancestors Oracle Cards by KG Read by Yvonne

Snake: Shed Old Skin

Letting go of what has not worked in the past. Releasing the past of its negativity. You can see the negative events and still let go of the negative view of them. In ACIM, we understand that The Miracle is seeing only what is real. Negativity and hurt are not real. And if someone does not understand this yet and insists on walking in that path. You can choose to not participate in that.

Here is a personal example:

Shunning was something I did not condone. To punish someone by ignoring them in any form just seemed so wrong to me. I grew up being mocked or shunned into correct behavior by a significant female in my life. I do not want to do this to someone else.

Yet, I have found that I must simply remove myself from a situation sometimes. I do it with intent and for the purpose of not attacking or allowing an attack. I realize now it can be seen as the same behavior as shunning.

I think what I want to remember is that a person feels unsafe when they shun, rather than that they are shunning me personally.

That is not the way I wanted to live in the world. I wanted everyone to be able to be nice and no one to feel left out. But this is not possible. ACIM is helping me to understand the workings of the ego and that to feign “niceness” to persons who are making me uncomfortable or not to feel accepted and worthy is to enable their fraud upon themselves.

Whereas if I take care of my own boundaries and comfort level I am an example of self-care and am not attacking or enforcing their particular form of attack on themselves. I am really new at this understanding, though I see now that I have done it for years, as in divorce. Hmm, deep things, worthy of contemplation. (This is why I write, I want to continue my own self-discovery.)

Druid: Hold the Space

Druids are ancient wise ones from the British Isles who were very connected to the sun, moon, and Earth. Here we are being counseled to be still, to hold the space.

As in the previous card, there is a lot of turmoil going on. It is in the thoughts, which translate to action in the world. Holding space that is true to our comfort level and healthy boundaries is what is being called for here.

For decades we have been encouraged to have more, be more, make more money. Even if it is for sacred purposes such as having time for the things that really matter and saving the world from its current issues, we are still off base.

The internet is rampant with such promises/ads. I have fallen for it for a few decades myself. The dream that a few do make it big or seem to is enticing. I see it as gambling today. Especially when they continue making their money by getting us to fall for a false dream as well.

It is irrational to think that the earth can sustain everyone living on the beach and freeing the masses to be able to do the same.

A true principle fits for everyone or no-one. We are a society of human bodies that have mortal needs that must be fulfilled by someone. So to think internet multi-million dollar businesses are the only way to go is not logical.

Those “carrots” out there are like mlm’s that have a few that reap great rewards and others that trudge along hoping to find that magic as well.

I would rather hold the space for a sustainable, simple life of craftsmanship that serves in their local community rather than a global market. Because this is where life is lived and not just “survived” by the masses. Those who teach it are not truly fulfilled either. You can see it by how they push themselves further and further by doing this and doing that to their market share fresh and enticing.

Do not think I am shunning wealth. I personally think that it has its own teaching tools and prepares us for continued growth, which I hold as a jewel beyond price.

I do ask could we hold the space for a healthy personal boundary that allows all to be who they are and trust that this will serve the masses the most?

Knight: Be Brave and Honest

The knight is dedicated and devoted. He serves not only from a position of strength but of devotion.

It will take courage to be true to our inner voice and sense of well being as the world points fingers at others and defends the obscenities it flings at one another.

It will take courage to let go of the responsibility of “fixing” someone who is not willing to honor themselves.

It certainly seems to go against the “Christian” way of doing things. Yet, Jesus did not do for others what they could do for themselves. And he held his own space, which is why he could perform the healings that he did.

(It was when he thought he could take the anger of the masses upon himself and be of influence that he was crucified, as were thousands of others in that era of fear-government that the Romans enlisted.)

Jesus said we would do as he did and more. ACIM says we can do this as well, but we have to believe it can be done.

Will we sustain the ego’s illusion or the Kingdom of God? We each will have to make this choice. Which has your allegiance?

You claim this power when you have become wholly vigilant for God AND the Kingdom.” Urtext ACIM pg. 159

Elder: Move Beyond Ancestral Patterns

Genes do not rule. Not in the body and not in societies. Generations of like behavior and genetics do not need to define us. This is a scientific fact.

“The Elder is the ancestor who comes with a message of healing change.”

Because you are of God you have the ability to move beyond what is placed upon you.

You create your own story.

Our challenges and supposed limitations are opportunities for us to think outside the box and be reminded of the heritage we truly have as children of God.

The Elders do not wish you to be burdened by their mistakes. They, like you, have forgotten that there is no separation from God in any form. Forgiveness of them for mistakes that have no true substance, allows you to accept forgiveness yourself.

We are able to let go of paths that no longer serve in truth without dishonoring our ancestors.


If the Christ Consciousness, that component of the human mind that is of God, is to move beyond its current status, humanity will need to stop, alter its thought patterns and thus its behavior.

Not dramatically, like in a war, but right where we are today.

We will have to shed the skin of the ego and reveal the Kingdom of God within, that each of us carries at this very moment.

We will need to hold the space for the witness of equality among all of creation. Beginning with the right to “be” and exist in a healthy and satisfying environment. This would include self, and others, as well as all of the earth and its inhabitants.

Courage to sincerely look at what we personally believe will be required. It will be challenged with the opportunity to justify attitudes we know that do not serve everyone equally. A devoted Knight we must be.

Our past as a family, community, nation, or planet does not have to define us. We are able to honor our ancestors without walking blindly in error. They are counting on us to alter what is not true.

On a personal note:

As I have aged I have found that life does not get easier on the outside, but as I look at, reframe, and reorganize on the inside by how I look at what I see, I feel a foundation forming that is stronger and more and more resilient.

Life presents terrific storms for those I care about and it seems I can only stand by, watch and pray. I rely on the Holy Spirit because I do not know the beginning from the end. I have no memory or witness of the “big picture” like He does.

I would be lost without Him. Yet, in Him, I have confidence and assurance that all is well. We can trust the process and do our best. We are being taken care of and looked after.

I pray this serves.

Till next time, God bless, Namaste~

Ego Mirages Versus Holy Spirit Understandings

I put this up because as a mom it hurt me to see abuse in my adult children’s families in any form:
Be Safe Be Honest Be Respectful
To Self To Things To Pets To Others
Disrespect and abuse are not difficult to spot. They come from the ego that believes in lack.
In the state of Spirit or walking in the light of the Holy Ghost, we know that things are okay and that it will work out because we are of God.
From this place, we might make errors, but we forgive ourselves and each other and do not walk in a perpetual cycle of belief in lack that breeds the place of envy and hatred.
One of the saddest things that can happen in the world of ego is for a mom to witness her child asking for help while at the same time refusing to accept it.
I love my children, all of them. Some allow me to exist in my own skin, some do not. Some have expectations that I cannot meet and that often are not even shared so I do not know what is expected of me.
I was not welcome in the family of origin that I had. There must have been a place I had as a child under 4 years that valued me. I remember pretty dresses, lots and lots. Today I suspect they may have come from Aunt Sharon.
Somebody took lots of pictures and there were even home movies made, but they have been long since lost.
When drugs overtook my dad and step-mom my world became a place of secrets. I see that place of secrets happening to my grandchildren as well. The child sees the dynamics of a family. As a child, you either hide what is really going on or break up a family.
And gramma’s cannot help. The children eventually understand this and no longer look to her for help. Visits with my gramma were rare and ended in great sorrow as I recall.
Even in the case of sexual abuse, you have to get the child away from the perpetrator or you risk a greater tragedy. The ego will do what it must to preserve its false identity.
Punishment is not the answer. Respecting and honoring personal identity is.
I have spent my life looking for and trying to create a family.
Today, I finally understand that you cannot do it with bodies or people, egos are unpredictable and fickle.
Bodies decay, what God has joined let no man put asunder (separate). It must be understood by the heart, by the spirit of each of us.
No one here is wise enough to sin. The most we can do is make a mistake, one of the worst and universal is that our body identifies who we are.
Families are a false creation of the ego to give, at best, a temporary sense of belonging.
The Holy Spirit can and does use the family metaphor to teach of the love of the Father to the Son, which we are each an extension of.
Manipulation is the best you get in the ego, a temporary fix because that is not what we are. An individual family is a false identity anyway. We are ONE, a single entity. Accountable for sustaining the integrity and voice of each component.
Until we claim our individual sovereignty and accountability for our own being we will suffer a lot. At our own hand.
Joy lies in the presence of the Holy Spirit that testifies of the true identity of humanity, as a part of God. God does not cast a part of Himself off as useless or unnecessary. He knows what is not eternal is not real at all.
So my mother’s heart will cry when I see the suffering of my children, knowing I am not able or allowed to help. But my eternal soul will delight in the witness that they are God’s and He will provide what they need and all that they are willing to receive from His hand.
May we speed up time till we remember this, that our suffering may be less, is my prayer.
In the meantime, I will remain in South Dakota and bear witness of the dignity of the individual.
My brain blanks at times and I know that I do not get the clues that my children leave that say I can come in. I cannot stop that. I have worked on my delusions all my life and will continue to do so.
I sense that they think that certain things should be obvious to me, but I cannot account for what they think I am or ought to be at the moment. I can only be what I am and try, most of the time, to be the best that I can be.
That’s really all I got folks!
Till next time, God bless, Namaste~

Day 17 Urtext ACIM pg. 20 Revelation Versus The Miracle

Man is free to believe what he chooses.
*And what he chooses will be what is seen in a manifested way. Because:
What he DOES attests to what he believes.
The deeper levels of his subconscious always contain the impulse to Miracles, but he is free to fill its superficial levels, which are closer to consciousness, with the impulses of this world and to identify himself with them.
This results in denying himself access to the miracle level underneath.
In conscious actions, then, his interpersonal relationships also become superficial, and miracle-inspired relating becomes impossible.
*One might say he is “of the world”, where the one able to perform the Miracle is “in the world, but not of it”.
Miracles are a way of EARNING release from fear.

*Earning. Not a very acceptable term today in terms of how to get to heaven. But NOTE the definition below. It is a movement word, an action that moves something. Somehow, that is different to me than the notion of our “earning our way into heaven”, as if we were responsible for getting there. Yet, if we are of God, which we are then, yes, we are responsible for taking the action (really a shift in thinking) that gets us there or at least away from fear.

Revelation induces a state in which fear has ALREADY BEEN abolished.
Miracles are thus a means, and Revelations are an end. In this sense, they work together.
(Tell B. that miracles DO NOT depend on Revelation. They INDUCE it. He is quite capable of miracles already, but he is still too fearful for Revelations.)
*When we receive revelation, we often want to second guess ourselves because we feel unworthy. Christ’s Guilty Conscience leaves us with this feeling of unworthiness on a very deep level which we may or may not be aware of.
Note that YOUR (HS) Revelation occurred specifically after you had engaged at the visionary level in a process of DENYING fear.
Revelation is intensely personal, & is actually not translatable into conscious content at all.
That is why any attempt to describe it in words is usually incomprehensible, even to the writer himself at another time.
*Interesting that this reminds me of the experience of many near-death experiencer’s that claim they gained all this “knowledge” and yet are not able to express or explain it for the inability to do so once they return. Perhaps it is not because they have forgotten but because as a revelation it is an integrated sort of thing. This is witnessed as it often has a huge effect on how they live their lives thereafter.
This is why the Book of Revelations is essentially incomprehensible.
*Okay, this from Jesus himself.
Revelation induces ONLY experience.
*I really appreciate how Jesus patiently defines words several ways, so we have a chance to absorb what he is saying.
Miracles, on the other hand, (*pg. 21) induce interpersonal ACTION.
*Action? In changing perspective? In choosing to see something in a different light? In choosing to take the initiative to forgive a seeming occurrence because it is impossible? Sometimes even in layers, for generations of misconception? It would appear so.
In the end, these are more useful, because of their IMPERSONAL nature.
*Miracles, impersonal, because it is a universal shift of viewing your life.
In this phase of learning, working miracles is more valuable because freedom from fear cannot be thrust upon you.
*Miracles invite the freedom from fear. They are the conductor for that release if you will.
When it is as in Revelation, The experience cannot last.
*That whole first phrase was crossed out by Bill. “When it is as in Revelation”.
*For me, it fits, but who am I? lol
*When freedom from fear is thrust upon you, as is Revelation, which is just given, freedom from fear cannot last. Whereas, when freedom follows the Miracle, it lasts as long as the understanding or acceptance of the Miracle does.
*The Miracle stops fear, but it does not stop the emotional experience of witnessing people who are still in the illusion of “body belief” and separation.
(Tell B. that your propensity for Revelations, which is very great, is the result of a high level of past communion.
*Apparently Helen had experienced Revelations often since she was able to be in touch with her higher self and she trusted her intuition. She was not agnostic, like Bill. She was an atheist and had learned to trust that inner voice as if it were her own. This is also the voice of the Holy Spirit spoken of in scriptures.
Its transitory nature comes from the descent into fear, which has not yet been overcome.
*The only reason she did not stay in the state of Revelation (it was transitory) was that she would become fearful. And Jesus is suggesting this is overcome with the Miracle.
His own “suspended” state mitigates both extremes.
*Suspended = temporarily stopped or altered/mitigates = to make something less. He had not been aware of Revelation or the Miracle.
This has been very apparent in the course of both of your recent developmental patterns.) Miracles are the essential course of ACTION for both of you.
*This is what they had been asking for in their agreed search.
They will strengthen him and stabilize you.
* i.e. Miracles meet your needs wherever you are at in the moment.
(Note that the much more personal than usual notes you are taking today reflect the Revelatory experience.
*Note was underlined. This note is to Helen.
This does NOT produce the more generalizable quality which this course is aimed at.
*For ACIM to meet the needs of the Whole of Humanity, nothing but the Miracle would do. They both had to “be there”. Bill had not stepped into the Miracle as yet. Even Revelation, which is so personal, was not enough.
They may, nevertheless, be of great help to B. personally, since you asked for something that WOULD help him personally.
*Here we see it was Helen who had concerns.
It depends on how he listens, and how well he understands the COOPERATIVE nature of your joint experience.
*This takes interaction to a whole other level. How often have you experienced cooperation on the level that Helen and Jesus were seeking from Bill?
*This may be indicative of all Miracles. This is what I am seeking in writing this. A Cooperative understanding among humanity that will literally change the world. It is the transition and awakening we have been waiting for. I do not believe we have it yet, but I do believe that ACIM has the answer.
You can help only by reading this note first.
*First was underlined.
Ask him later if this should be included in the written part of the course at all or whether you should keep these notes separately. He is in charge of these decisions.)
*Here Jesus is showing that Bill has an active part in this work. Showing us we each must have a voice in the process.
(Tell B. he should try to understand the VERY important difference between Christ control and Christ-guidance.
*To begin with Jesus alone is not Christ, however, it appears that Bill and Helen are not aware of this as yet. Let’s look at this though. It is very relative to any human interaction. Is anyone able to control you?
Are you able to control anyone? Even with the Holy Spirit, it is guidance that He gives. Not control.
*Even those who are bullies or in power, even a criminal, only can impact the body or at least seem to. The mind is yours to control. The choice is not taken away, though we give it away easily enough. It is a matter of listening and taking things with a grain of salt or with an observing eye and then move forward.
This is what made him fearful yesterday.)
*Per the rest of the conversation, he was not able to get a revelation that he desired.
*We are on a magnificent journey to remember our absolute and unbreakable union with God. It will not be forced on us and we will rejoice once we get there because the sweetness of that union is beyond anything experienced in the “here and now”. Maybe in the “over there” as well. Chuckle.
Till next time, God bless, Namaste~
(* Remember I claim no special gifts, they are just my thoughts after a lifetime of trying to understand the will of God, as Jesus taught it. I share that my understanding may grow. My comments are as follows: (*…) The text is in bold print. Crossed out words and phrases from the Urtext did not copy here, so they are made mention to in my comments. Please bring the Spirit with you to the reading.)

Universal Reading 6 May through 12 May 2019

Wisdom of Avalon Oracle Cards by C. B-R. Read by Yvonne

For the Christ-Consciousness, the United Whole, not to be confused with the mass consciousness of the self-destructive ego of the human race.

The Raven: Magic, Coincidence, Synchronistic Events

Magic happens in the realm of unreal. Brought on by belief in what cannot be explained. We live in a world where magic reigns. It can bring about both that which is pleasant and that which is very much the opposite.

Your thoughts determine your beliefs. The old beliefs, even subconscious ones are able to be reviewed and given up if found wanting.

The world is very much in this state and how long we are here depends on our willingness, not only to see what is presented in the management of our thoughts but the reviewing and purging of that which no longer serves.

The Frog: Cleaning House, Releasing Emotional Baggage

Another way to put what I felt so impressed by in the first card. Clutter in the environment, head, or heart needs to be reviewed. If positive and supportive energy is not experienced, it is time to let go. Nothing real leaves permanently.

We are all One, yet sovereignty is experienced as we take responsibility for our journey. recycle, move on, let go, and let what you hold onto for unsupportive reasons serve a purpose elsewhere.

Then hop to the new lily pad, light and free. Be sure you do not just give it away and hold onto it in your heart or mind.

The Wind Faery: Thoughts, Words, Intellectual Analysis

We are looking at the thoughts once more. Are they reflective of where you want to be? Are you giving thanks for where you are right now?

Do your words reflect what you want? They do reflect the truth of where the heart is.

Choice is the privilege of the intellect. Consider your options and move forward in thought. Let it peel like an onion. It may not reveal all you desire in the time you decide but it will release the resistance to receiving what you truly desire a layer at a time.

Moving forward is what matters. Do not judge yourself. Do choose to act though. Effort in creating a strategy will not go unrewarded.

The King: Man, Authority, Male Sexual Energy, Things Pertaining to Law and Justice

We are in a place right now where things are really being stirred up throughout the world. The status quo is no longer accepted.

Everything is being challenged. Laws, education, our very way of life.

This card is not talking about male body parts. It is speaking of the energy that says “I choose to be.” In the past, it was acceptable to let others decide for the masses. This is no longer going to be a functional reality.

Instead, we are each going to need to play our role with greater awareness in creating the world environment that we desire.

This card is for the Whole Christ Consciousness and it speaks to each one of us individually.


We will see with greater regularity the results of our thoughts through synchronistic and coincidental events.

We will gain a realization that we need to decide what we want and be accountable for the clutter we hold on to.

We will recognize with greater clarity that the problems in the world are not just “over there”, they are right here, at home, in our own thoughts.

We will have a greater sense of our own empowerment individually and through our leaders that will affect the rules of our engagement in the world.

Individual accountability. Individual empowerment equals a stronger, healthier environment for all. This reading truly shows that the human race has potential and endless possibilities.

And so it is. I hope this serves.

Till next time, God bless, Namaste~

Day 16 Urtext ACIM pg. 20 Superconscious Impulses Feel Sexual

For example, if the identification is with the body, consciousness may distort superconscious impulses by denying their Source, & seeking their impact in the orgasm.
*Distortion of superconscious impulses. Denying their Source. Isn’t that interesting. I know that once sex enters a relationship all other cognitive capabilities are gone. But like other addictive substances, its results do not last. I also know that a sexual relationship takes place in the mind. It has to do with what you tell yourself.
*Yogi’s have, for ages, told us there is another meaning to our sex drive and energy, and that it is not so far from Nirvana.
This is the result of the “mistaken identity” confusion.
*The idea that we are bodies instead of energetic personifications of God in the flesh.
If you will look back at the description of the EFFECTS of Revelation (This and preceding paragraph go later) Revelations induce complete but temporary suspension of doubt & fear.

*That moment of clarity when we know we have received something beyond our day to day selves.

They represent the original form of communication between God and His Souls, before the intrusion of fire and ice made this impossible.

*Opposition, i. e. The Fall.

It should be noted that they involve an extremely personal sense of closeness to Creation, which man tries to find in sexual relationships.

*He is still speaking of Revelation here, which requires real communion or co-union.

This confusion is responsible for the depression and fear which are often associated with sex.
Sex is often associated with lack of love, but Revelation is PURELY a love experience.

*Is that at least in part because it unites, i. e. gnosis? For me, revelation is pure knowledge received from the Holy Spirit, not of one’s own mind or thoughts, or of any other “entity”. (This is a reference to channeling, which I obviously acknowledge.
Physical closeness CANNOT achieve this. As was said before, the subconscious impulses properly induce Miracles, which ARE interpersonal, and result in closeness to others.
*Not necessarily physical closeness, but a closeness one can feel.
*Empaths who are not aware of the mechanism that is foundational in ACIM, are often left overwhelmed with the impact of their witness of the suffering in the world in its many forms. Recognizing and acknowledging the suffering in the world is necessary to create a desire to alleviate it, i. e. compassion. True forgiveness acknowledges its impossibility.
*ACIM gives the understanding and ability to psychically and emotionally detach from the downward energy while promoting compassionate response where it is accepted.
*It can be tricky to balance not interfering with the contract of suffering another has and still be compassionate. If you get too close to one who has agreed to suffer harshly. the only thing you will do is be dragged into that suffering cyclone. Our greatest assistance may be lifting ourselves, that others may follow our example.
*This is why the course is so needed. And may I remind you of something that public teachers of this course do not understand. This is a required course. Whether you learn it from this particular book or the Spirit guides you to get the information some other way; ALL will take this course before we rest.
This can be misunderstood by a personally willful consciousness as an impulse toward sexual gratification.
*Okay, please HEAR this. A personally willful consciousness is body-centered, a body focused consciousness. In other words, spirituality can deeply touch you in the esoteric world of non-body. It can cause you to feel a state of sexual arousal. You may feel like you are craning to get every sensory awareness that you are capable of. Do not be afraid of it; observe and breath. It is not necessary to physically embrace whoever is close by. Breath and observe.
The Revelation unites Souls directly with God.
*Nobody taught us that in school, did they? Did you know that in the Church of Jesus Christ that the soul is taught to be the body and the spirit united? So, Revelation unites body and spirit with God? Meditators have said for eons that meditation leads to the greatest orgasm. We have to be careful in giving definitive meaning to Jesus’ use of the word Soul here. We want to be sure we have his meaning.
The Miracle unites Souls directly with each other.
*Hmm, body and spirit? Yes, but not necessarily in a sexual way. You see? We do not need to be in an all-out orgy to feel connected. Think of disasters where communities are brought together. Though sadly, this can bring out deviant sexual behavior as well. It is a state of confusion.
*Sex, if truly understood, is actually a poor substitute for what humanity could feel toward each other, if they were taught about the true nature of these feelings of ecstasy.
*And our darling teens get siphoned off into addiction and false societal mentality that sex, which of itself is non-fulfilling and not residual energy, will somehow set them free. What a lie.
Neither emanates from consciousness, but both are EXPERIENCED there. This is essential because consciousness is the state which PRODUCES action, though it DOES NOT Inspire it.
*Revelation and the Miracle do not come from the consciousness but is EXPERIENCED there. Consciousness or thought, produce action; action does not occur until a thought enters.
*Excuse my musing for a moment…are we pre-programmed to suffer, with the ability through Revelation and the Miracle, to undo said programming? I suspect that might be the case. A way out of the Matrix.
Till next time, God bless, Namaste~
(* Remember I claim no special gifts, they are just my thoughts after a lifetime of trying to understand the will of God, as Jesus taught it. I share that my understanding may grow. My comments are as follows: (*…) The text is in bold print. Crossed out words and phrases from the Urtext did not copy here, so they are made mention to in my comments. Please bring the Spirit with you to the reading.)

Let’s Talk About Sex

*Full Disclosure: I am of the understanding that what the body craves or desires is not something that is eternal. Therefore to me, things like eating and sex are not truly a part of our eternal natures. They are symbolic metaphors for our true identities and the confusion we are facing. Also, I am not going to speak to any singular expression. This discussion is to consider its current impact and role in humanities bondage and deliverance.

Sex is a topic everyone is interested in, even if only via curiosity. 

It is a powerful entity, as marketers well know, it moves the human to action.

We tend to think of it as the backbone of love. 

We believe that it personifies our aliveness, our vitality. 

We are ashamed to look at our feelings and emotions because of societal attitudes about the topic. 

We dress up for it. 

We dress down because of it. 

We use it to express our rage. 

We use it to comfort ourselves and others. 

It can become a measuring stick. 

Sexual attraction is thought of as something that we should “act” on or suppress. 

It somehow makes us feel alive.

It can feel shameful. 

Maybe even so shameful that the only way to express it is in anger and rage. (rape) 

It is shunned and suppressed in some circles. 

Flaunted and focused on in others. 

It is the quin essential component that sparks both love and hate in all its variations. 

Once one has been exposed to sexual contact there is a sense of knowledge that occurs.

Sadly, it can become the substance of the wall that a child builds up against the world that makes no sense.

The child and youth are still in remembrance of the place of power that they come from and sex reminds them of that place.

Instead of being a catalyst that allows them to return to the memory of their true divinity they are self-sabotaged and trapped in the illusion that the body is the means of deliverance.

*I speak of this as a child caught in such a trap, by the misconduct of adults in my life. There are plenty who experience it as curiosity among peers as well. Perhaps I would have been among those as well, had the course of events not occurred as they did. 

With our true consciousness waking up, it is understandable to imagine that sex would go crazy. Like a drug, it can be misused in varying degrees. It can also be satisfying, useful, and comforting, even though temporary.

The gay community, transgender, heterosexual, all of it is the reflection of the ego seeking to connect with bodies.

My heart and mind have been opened and I have no qualms with where people are in these things.

I have gained compassion and understanding of the many forms of sexual expression.

We have to look beyond these physical confusions or seeming realities. 

What we want to understand though is that we are not bodies. That is not what we are. We are gods. Energy within the creator that is able to manifest anything and we do it collectively first, then singularly.

Even then, in the singular sphere, I suspect that there is great influence from multiple sources. Jesus being key among these.

As the eldest brother, he is mindful and aware of our experiences. With the Holy Spirit, he is aware of the past, present, and future. There are many others as well that influence the state of humanity.

That does not diminish our personal power. Only we can deny that. We cannot remove it, we can only choose to forget it.

When will psychology look at the human race as if it were one mind instead of millions?

The individual ego is like a decoy that distracts humanity from its truth.

We are one entity. One mind. One personage. And we have not left the presence or embrace of our creator.

The individual ego or life, if you will, can give clues to the awakening that needs to take place in each and every one of us.

In ACIM Jesus says sex is an idol that seeks to replace the connection that we have with each other in truth.

The Atonement was given to us as soon as the concept of Separation occurred to the Son of God. At the same time the veils of denial, shame, guilt, self-debasing thoughts and behaviors became a part of the human race.

Only through forgiveness and tolerance will we find answers.

Sex titillates, distracts, consumes, pre-occupies the mind of humanity.

This is an energy that is misunderstood and when seeking physical relief or orgasm, becomes a target or excuse for the three temptations of humanity i.e. addiction, oppression, and depression.

It is never really satisfied either. Planted with these soils.

Occasionally, you will find persons with compassion and gratitude as their motivation in these endeavors. I really do suspect that this is far from the norm and I obviously have not conducted any scientific research to prove my theories.

Sex is also what gives us our children and what separates us from them as the shame of such behavior lies in the subconscious and forges a wedge between parent and child. Sometimes understood, often not. (This may vary in different cultures. I suspect it may have some universal resonance, however.)

I could go on and on and perhaps will another day. For now, this is food for thought.

These are personal observations and insights. You decide if they have any merit. May the Spirit bear witness to what is true.

Till next time, God bless, Namaste~

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