A Mother’s Lament; the Obligation to Share What She Knows, Even if She is Emotionally Fragile

I am not interested in making money off of this page. I have never had money to speak of and that has its advantages. Would I be up for the challenge if that were to change?

Emotionally I am hamburger. What I know about humanity is powerful and it is only by the grace of God and angels that I carry on. But if I have a message that could ease human suffering, do I not have an obligation to share it? Do people want to hear my particular perspective? It is really different from any I have heard or seen.

I spent over 30 years in The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and bore testimony regularly. I taught my children within this structure, so I am inclined to feel my sharing where I am in my walk in the world is important to somebody.

(PS I am no longer satisfied with the teachings of the church and do not attend. In no way do I speak for them. At the same time I cannot deny their teachings have not affected me.)

I thought about doing a TEDx talk and got so emotionally shook-up when I saw one I could apply for locally I put my back out again. At the same time…

I think I would be short-selling myself if I did not send in an application for the TEDx Talk. I am not sure that they will accept me though, they want only good solid science. My talk would be social science, if you will, what the effects of religion and have led me to understand as a means of coping with the world. I believe it should have merit in that environment. I will know within a month if I am accepted.

I want to share the love I feel and that I believe comes from the Holy Spirit, as I came to know Him over a lifetime of trying to understand things.

My prayers of late are that those who would benefit from what I share will find me. I just choose to put it out there and let it be what it is. I continue to grow in my understanding of things and know that no one has all the answers. I never expect to and certainly do not want to lead anyone into a darker place.

I come from a place of chemical, physical, and emotional abuse and I sought for years to understand the world around me. My journey has taught me many things. It has pretty much separated me from family and humanity. And yet I have a great compassion for humanity and a desire to comfort and take away the desire and “need” of suffering to the extent I am allowed.

I believe that the amount of suffering we have is a choice. Pain, we will all experience, but pain does not equal suffering in my mind, because it ends. The psychological crap we lay on ourselves does not end, unless we choose to think differently. It continues and recycles throughout generations.

I still follow where I believe Jesus and the Holy Spirit lead me and you will not find another person that sees life’s experiences in the way that I do. Never have been a mixer, though I can meet most situations.

I see a lot of hurt in the world and I empathize, but I do not want to partake in it and I believe that Christ is the One that is allowing me to function daily, while I live through what I used to believe hell would be like. Where my children where suffering and I could not help.

That was when they were little and I thought of giving up on the world and ending my life. Today I feel that life, while very challenging is not ours but Christ’s and that we have empowerment, by forgiving The Christ Consciousness that created this world, and this identity that lives in this body for being willing to live a life of suffering.

Joy is our destiny and we need to reach out and take it.

May the angels walk along-side us as we do our best to bring light into the world.

Till next time, God bless, Namaste~

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Day 3 URTEXT ACIM WP STUDY pg 13 and 14 (#4-10)

Day 3 URTEXT ACIM STUDY pg 13 and 14

(* Remember I claim no special gifts, they are just my thoughts after a lifetime of trying to understand the will of God, as Jesus taught it, and share it with others from my place of understanding. My comments are as follows: (*…) With the text being in bold print. Crossed out words and phrases from the Urtext did not copy here, so they are made mention to in my comments. Please bring the Spirit with you to the reading.)

4. All miracles mean Life, and God is the giver of the Life.

(*Life, meaning true eternal existence….not necessarily in the same material form, rather eternal consciousness existence. —“the” was crossed out, considering that this is a role that Christ gave us in His dream state and not truly life itself, which comes from The Father of Christ, I suspect the “the” fits very well.)

He will direct you VERY specifically.

(*I love the emphasis on specifically. I know that I have been directed and prepared for traumatic experiences, etc. I have a personal witness of this. I would also suggest it important to note here that it is Christ who will direct us, not His Father. I do not mean Jesus either, I mean Christ of whom you, me, and Jesus are a part. I do then, believe in a Matrix, a hub or central output source, within the Christ Consciousness.)

(Plan ahead is good advice in this world, where you should and must control & direct where you have accepted responsibility. But the Universal Plan is in more appropriate hands. You will know all you need to know. Make NO attempts to plan ahead in this respect.)

(*Plan ahead is a good motto. You have heard a big one in Be Prepared with the Boy Scouts. Jesus confirms it here….”where you have accepted responsibility.” May I suggest you reflect on what you take responsibility for and ask if it is truly yours. If so, Jesus says “you should and you must direct”, with today’s enlightenment of vernacular freedom, may I suggest that “you WANT and WILL to direct”. This is part of accepting the individuality of YOU, even within the Whole.)

(*The Universal Plan is sort of like the dharma that Hinduism speaks of. We each do have a role in this dream of Christ’s and even His delusional thoughts -which we are- will be made manifest. What I am saying is you have agreed to play a part in Christ’s self-attack screen play. Accept this without blame or shame. And lift Christ to His Father’s Love to whatever degree you are able. **Mine is to be seen as a whore, a physically abusive person, and as a pious religious fanatic therefore, people feel justified in taking over my life or my stewardships for me. I cannot change how other’s have been set to view me –by their personal assignment from Christ’s Guilty Conscience and need to self-punish—, so that Christ can justify the attacks, but I can forgive myself and others and move forward with the physician’s creed of “do no harm”.)

(* “Make no attempts to plan ahead in this respect.” Hm, the Universal Plan is set up. You can dream and visualize, then let it go and let god as they say. The Plan will move forward as He sees fit. I believe that we may shorten the time Christ suffers through forgiveness and finding joy and peace in the NOW. I have found that, even with this knowledge, that ghosts and illusions of discontent and trauma swirl around me and seem to torture me through my supposed offenses or those who would attack my role here. As this plays out around me I keep in my heart a witness of Christ at all times and when it brings me to my knees I look heavenward in my heart and say the prayer “Christ, I forgive you, for believing in the separation from God. I offer you to The Father’s Love.”)

pg 14

5. Miracles are habits, and should be involuntary.
They should not be under conscious control.
(Otherwise they may become undemocratic. Consciously selected miracles are usually dangerous misguided and may destroy this will make the talent useless.)

(*—the 5 is not in the manuscript but I added it to avoid confusion—So it is a “perceptional” lifestyle. In the past I have sought to be in the mind-set of forgiving before the offense has occurred. With this mentality I can look at what has come my way and ask what it is teaching me. It becomes a way of life.)

(* “Consciously selected miracles are usually dangerous misguided…” In other words, it may come from a place of judgment, which may include prejudice and bigotry, which would obviously, destroy the process or at the very least make the “miracle” useless.)

(*Notice the words crossed out: “Otherwise they may become undemocratic.” as well as, “dangerous” and may destroy”. This shows the limited understanding of the material being taught at the moment by H and B.)

(*I would refer to the prayer Jesus suggested be offered daily, which was removed from published editions: “Help me to perform whatever miracles you want of me today.”)

6. Miracles are natural. When they do NOT occur something has gone wrong.

(*Christ’s Guilty Conscience is in control of the situation.)

7. Miracles are everyone’s right, but purification is necessary first.

(*The purification occurs as you recognize this illusion is not real and look to yourself and others as innocent. This can take various, many, and diverse steps, which is why each of us is on the path of purification, yet appear to be at different levels of it in their personal journey. **Reiterate, “Miracles are everyone’s right”.)

8. Miracles are a form of healing. They supply a lack, and are performed by those who have more for those who have less.

(*They are also needed only in the illusion, because God’s Son, part of whom you are, is perfect and in need of no illusion. Just as the difference between us, as in more and/or less is illusion. Yet, you understand the need for the terms here in the dream of Christ’s Separation from God.)

9. Miracles are a kind of exchange. Like all expressions of love, which are ALWAYS miraculous in the true sense, the exchange reverses the physical laws.

(*Love, love, Love this! An exchange of the illusion for the truth.)

10. A miracle is a reversal of the physical order because it brings more love to the giver and the receiver.

(A miracle is misunderstood when it is regarded as a spectacle.)

(* Hm, “…reversal of the physical order”…..exchanging worldly or temporal existence for Heaven? I suspect so. The miracle…reminds me of a grandchild, excited to see a grandparent allowed to be in that emotion and not restricted by the attitudes of those around them. And vice versa, a grandparent allowed to express the joy in seeing a grandchild and not needing to be burdened by attitudes of distrust and grudges from the child’s parents. ….take the miracle of the witness of how you would have it be, or how they would, and do not miss out on the love because the behavior or action seems to not allow it. ….I hope that was not too confusing and, while very personal, I believe it has merit here. …”a spectacle”, perhaps when it is forced, like SMILE, or when it is seen as unusual…)

Till next time, God bless, Namaste~


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Universal Reading 14 January through 20 January 2019

Universal Reading 14 January through 20 January 2019

Angel Tarot Cards by RV


Ten of Earth

“A very happy family life. Financial security. Finding magic in the little things of life.”

So many of us have abundance. Things seem settled, secure. Yet it is simple things that make up the moment and the quality of life. Embrace these things and point them out to others so they may feel the blessings as well.

Then forgive Christ for all else, and remind Him of who He truly is as God’s Son.


Four of Fire

“Contentment, peace, and abundance. A happy home life. The successful completion of a project.”

We are ready for the shift that has been prophesied because we have completed the roles that we were sent here to perform for Christ.

Four is stability. We are stable as individuals and we have weathered the storms. We have lived the lifetimes necessary to move through this transition. We have our feet firmly planted in the witness of truth.

This is an action card and suggests advancement in relationships and or career. I have a strong feeling that we are able to advance into the place where we are able to acknowledge who we are as Christ, and to recognize and appreciate that in one another.

This will allow humanity to move forward into the “Age of Benevolence”. (NDE’r)


Page of Air

“Challenging information. Delays or changes to plans. Truth delivered without tact.”

This is a card of youth or inexperience. As we recognize The Christ within ourselves and one another we will stumble in our communication. We will be able to be open about behaviors that have heretofore been painful and unapproachable.

This is one of the beautiful things about seeing The Christ. We may speak about what is really troubling us, because we are not telling someone they are not worthy or not equal. We are only saying that the behavior is very unsettling, and needs to be looked at if it makes someone uncomfortable.

We are all in this together and knowing The Christ keeps that in our sights at all times.

That does not mean that things will not come out a bit “overdone” at times. But this exuberance will be understood because of the newness of where we are at. It is a very good thing.

Air is thought also, reminding us that it is our thoughts that will bring about the change that we want to see, and the clarity of purpose on the planet.


4 The Emperor

“Organization and logic. Structure and discipline. Leadership.”

4 is stability, foundation. We are guided. We have angels assisting us and waiting to be called on. They will guide us into behavior patterns that will strengthen and build us if we will let them.

Logic, discipline, and order are required, even as we move into a better state in the world. Everything is in flux and the kind of shifts that will be taking place will not go from here to there overnight, though I suspect that in hindsight some of it will seem as if it did.
As we make the shift, personal leadership will become more evident. The kind of leadership that will come forward is not the kind that needs governing as much as it will need listening, planning, brain storming, and cooperating. The personal logic, discipline, and order that was suggested earlier.

Archangel Michael will be very engaged and willing to assist humanity in our transition period. He is not only a protector and provides strength and encouragement to meet our goals, he is able to help us with clarity in seeing the tasks that lay ahead and utilizing the part of the brain (left) that will see to the practical needs of society as a whole and individually.



We have resources that show us we have abundance and we are safe enough to be able to realize that it is the little things that hold the magic and delight in life.

Stability is available to humanity. We can feel good about the efforts that generations have made to establish the means to extend the witness of The Christ throughout the world and unite as a Whole Entity.

Changes will be made because we are willing and able to voice those things that happen in secret or that are not addressed in the open because of misinformation. The emerging awareness’s will not allow the shadows to be hidden any longer.

Leadership will be held and honored not by a few, but the masses will come to understand that leadership must take place in the individual level. Archangel Michael, which I suspect may be Adam, will be involved and is ready to assist us in stabilizing the prosperity and security of all humanity.

I was very moved by this reading. The things that I am seeing online bare witness to these shifts of awareness. We are no longer a people seeking to survive the elements, we are looking at personal behaviors in our lives and seeking equality and dignity for all, whatever our differences may be. Praise be!
May God bless us, till next time,

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Universal Reading 7 January through 13 January 2019

Universal Reading 7 January through 13 January 2019

5 Divine Guidance

“The search for meaning in life. Consider an alternative approach. Surround yourself with wise teachers or friends.”

This is the question card. The restatement of the situation. The number 5 suggests challenge and difficulties. Our experiences are metaphors for us to look at so that we may know ourselves. We are actually given clues daily, each of us about the Divinity to which we were born. Look at all that you experience as teachers and listen to the still small voice within you that will direct you to your true self.

6 The Lovers

“Make choices from your heart. Deeply emotional commitments. The power of love.”

This is the card that speaks to the individual. What can you and I do to help the Universal Whole? I believe that LOVE is the force that makes anything that is real. While we are immersed in the delusion, compassion and empathy may be where we need to start. Will you start by being compassionate and have empathy and understanding of your role in the plan of Christ’s Guilty Conscience?

King of Michael

“Principled, Rational, Ambitious, Respected”
“Wisdom and objectivity are important now! Stay in your integrity. A situation that calls for honest and open communication.”

This is the card that contains the message for the Whole Christ Consciousness. We are people of value and integrity. We are creations of a true and living God/Force that is benevolent, kind, good, and worthy in every way.

King of Gabrie

“Generous, Inspirational, Dramatic, Driven”
“Keep your eyes on the big picture; leave the details to others. Experience that leads to success. Genuine concern for others.”

This card is the guidance from those who have spent eons reaching for the answers, Lao Tse (writer of the Tao), Jesus, Confucius, etc. We have the heart of the Warrior of the Latter-days to reach for a better world by how we choose to look at ourselves. We have what it takes to be the Leaders we were called to be at this time. We can do this!

Till next time,

God Bless, Namaste~

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A New Year’s Note 2019 and a Gift: Jesus Loves Me; Revised

Saving Christ; It’s in the Cards In Full, In The Archive Saving Christ

How embarrassed I was to discover that I had not put up the last chapter and three appendages to the book!

It has been an emotional year for me.

Learning the things I have has taken me places I never would have dreamed.

One thing for sure, I discovered that, in the spiritual world, it is truly possible to have still waters in one’s soul and core, while winds and storms fly about us and try to break us down.

This is not an uncommon metaphor, I know. It just struck me different this year and when I think of the river that looks so smooth on the top and is full of life and motion, even turmoil underneath, well, to recognize the opposite can be true in the spiritual walk had significance for me.

I am beginning to feel like I have my feet under me and that I will be able to move forward in a positive way again. For a time, with my move to Washington and back it was rough going. I learned so much.

And then being back in South Dakota had its surprises!

I was able to complete a 12,500 word novella before New Year’s that brought me significant relief. I will be sharing that soon.

For now, may I share a gift for the New Year? It is a re-write of Jesus Loves Me, a song that is very special to me. Within this revision is the world as I understand it today. God bless and may we all have a marvelous year!

Jesus Loves Me, revised
(6 verses)

Jesus loves us, He who lived
In Christ’s Consciousness
Release to give
Jesus loves The Whole you see
Sent to bless both you and me

Yes, Jesus loves us
Yes, Jesus loves us
Yes, Jesus loves us
The Spirit tells me so

Jesus loves us, perfectly
Giving love unconditionally
Sent to show us God’s Own Son
In the mirror, see the Holy One

Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
The Spirit tells me so

Not for you He came to die
But to reveal and intensify
Compassion for the new-born god
Christ alone on this world trods

Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
The Spirit tells me so

We would waken, gent-e-ly
God’s One Son
Who’s you and me
Free Him from the bonds of guilt
Hold Him up on Nature’s quilt

Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
The Spirit tells me so

Set Him free so all may see
God revealed eternally
No where can one look and find
God’s love lacking, we are purified.

Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
The Spirit tells me so

Freeing one will free the whole
Scientific physics tells us so
Lets join hands and celebrate
The Son’s birth, to His heavenly state

Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
The Spirit tells me so

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Appendage C Songs From The Awe, from Saving Christ; It’s in the Cards

Songs from the Awe

by Debi Simmons
Debra Yvonne Simmons
Deb, Debbie, Debra
Christa-Ann Faith Goddaughter

Copy wright No portion of this intellectual work may be copied without the express, written permission from its creator.

Let the Spirit Teach You Through the Song
You Will Hear Much More Than I Ever Understood

From the beginning of the trip to the end I got to listen to the radio, Serius XM. Love it!. I had lots of choices, but they spoke of things that did not remind me of who I am, nor did they make me think of Christ. Today I would say that I heard the message of the Christ’s Conscience filled with joys that end, with the sorrows and longings we experience along the way. Like a child who has lost his way we sing of things that appear to have priority in our existence at the moment, forgetting that our Father and complete well-being are so very close by.

I am not trying to denounce all the incredible talent that has been shared over the years, nor am I saying that they have not helped humanity cope and express its joys and sorrows. What I am saying is that I believe that there is a higher plateau that we might reach for and that we are meant to be a part of.

It was after crossing those incredible mountains at a rest stop in Colorado that I wrote fourteen songs that helped me express the wonder, majesty, and awe that I had experienced on the road that day. It was an effort to process the overwhelm from the breath-taking beauty of the Rocky Mountains. I want to share those with you.

Beauty and Majesty of the Earth

Ocean Waves
Sea Weed
This is God
This is the power of God
This is the power of Me
Repeat Twice

Everything Testifies of Christ

Everything that has any form of manifestation
is a manifestation of Christ.
All form of emotion, thought, action,
is manifestation of Christ.
He is the only relationship that we need to get right.
Then all else falls into place and is understood.


Nature and all of creation call out
See me!
Know me!
I am
I am God!

Nearly Overwhelmed

I am nearly over-whelmed
with the beauty and majesty that is creation
~the leading edge~
learned by the Spirit
breathed in as knowledge
Questions all dissipate
and only awe and beauty remain.

Talking Flowers (Celebrating You)

Talking flowers,
singing flowers,
can you hear them?
Listen well.
The breeze,
the breath,
the warmth of the sunshine.
Singing are they,
just for you.

Cosmic Orgasm

Euphoric orgasm
it all
the true understanding of Christ.
Let it Go
Let it Go

There Is Order In The Chaos

There is order in the chaos,
(chorus, softly) A choice we make in every breath!
In the creation of the manifestation.
(chorus, softly) A choice we make in every breath!
Though not understood by the logical/ linear
(chorus, softly) A choice we make in every breath!
Thinking of the human mind.
(chorus, softly) A choice we make in every breath!
We can end suffering for it is a choice.
(chorus, bold and strong on the third repeat of the whole) A choice we make in every breath!

Mighty Tree

You witness to me
of change, transformation,
of life, and of death.
Not an ending,
a continuation of being
in whatever form
is laid aside in the escrow
of the vortex
of my creation.
We are One
my friend
my heartbeat
my dream of awakening.


We created you
Christ, in fact, created you.
Know Me!
How many more
avenging angels
will have to come
before we acknowledge
Who and What we are as
Creators of the world
In which we roam!?!?!

Let Me Be The Healing

(verse one)
Let me be the healing
Let me be the light
That shines the truth on creation
of its divinity in Christ.
(verse two)
Let me see the innocence
in everything that I see.
Let me acknowledge the
appendage of me in thee.
(verse three)
Let me extend forgiveness into
everything I see.
Before it even manifests
I would share my love with thee.

We Forgot

You forgot, I know
I did too.
I will remember
it for you.
And so in forgiveness
I will walk this day.
For Christ, I am
and Christ I’ll be.
And you, my love,
are a part of me.

A Romance

Let’s dance for just a while, my love.
And remember tenderly.
The joy of the creation
that manifests in you and me.
Let’s sing a song
and share a smile.
So all the world can see.
God’s love manifested here.
Just between you and me.

Me, Myself, and I

(verse one)
A walk in faith
is what I asked for,
not miracles…
Yet now I can see
in this world separation has made
miracles are everywhere
as far as the eye can see.
(verse two)
Behind the sorrows of the mind,
shadows that seem scary in the dark,
in the light of day
fade away
And Christ’s majesty is stark!
(verse three)
So share it now
I will with you
for naught else can I do.
The scales of darkness fall from my eyes
and reveal myself in you!

The Temple of Christ

(verse one)
The temples shining on the hill
were everything to me!
For here was peace and teaching found.
While separation’s illusion
kept me bound.
(verse two)
I grew to know
the Spirit’s Voice
and sought His guidance solely.
So He helped me see
that manifested creation
is Holy.
(verse three)
Death has no sting
so it cannot harm.
It only serves to be
the thing that rallies
all mankind
to think collectively.
(verse four)
Yet so much more
will mankind be
when he looks at you
and sees Only Me.
When He looks at You
and sees only Me.

May God grant us the ability to observe the spender and beauty that is life and to recognize and forgive Christ in all of it. May He be praised forever, glory to His name!

Debi Simmons AKA Christa-Ann Faith Goddaughter
11 March 2018

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Appendage B Why the Suffering? from Saving Christ; It’s in the Cards

Appendage B

Appendage: 6 February 2017 This is a conversation on Facebook with a man named Marcus.

Marcus: Riddle me this. I’ve been awake for 11 months. My whole life, now I look back on it.😁ok the point is ,does it take going to complete darkness to find ‘IT’ .Why the suffering? Why?

Me: We are the children of Christ, as is all manifestation. You could change the word children to thoughts. As such we are made up of him as he is made up of what his Father is. Christ is the originator of all suffering or error. At his creation he thought (only for a micro second) that he had separated from God and felt ashamed and worthy of punishment and death. This was ridiculous, of course, for God is omnipotent (all-powerful) and omnipresent (everywhere).

The thoughts of a god are so powerful they manifest worlds without end. We, like our Father, Christ are capable of doing as his Father did. Sadly, currently we continue the attitude of unworthiness and the belief it is possible to die.

I believe in a Christ Consciousness that means we are all truly one and will awaken to the fact that we are The Christ. I can just as easily say “Lord Marcus Christ” as I can say “Lord Jesus Christ” They are both real and precious to me.

I also believe in a “Christ Conscience”” my term created to testify that we are each carry that in our psychological DNA that allows suffering and death as a part of our existence.
It is a false attitude and is correctable by mankind. We have been given this opportunity. Know that the suffering you see is only illusion and forgive all concerned, beginning with Christ, our Father.

I am seeking to publish a manuscript of my thoughts currently entitled “Its In The Cards” The intro can be found on my Facebook page Christa-Ann Faith Godsdaughter. Please like and share if you would like to hear more. I do a weekly universal five-card reading video on the site as well to testify of Christ is my truth and purpose of existence. I will not follow society’s opinions on the subject alone. I have spent a lifetime studying and proving the Word of God and I have found it in each of us.

Admin, I hope this is not out of line. I am not soliciting funds. I am only trying to share a message that I feel is vital to humanity and that we will all come to understand one day it will truly set us free. Thank you.

As we come to understand this concept, suffering will disappear no matter what happens in our lives of illusion. We are not our emotions, our circumstance, or our culture. We are divine beings of God with the power to create what we desire. Christ is the one that unites us all regardless of our position, gender, race, culture, or any other demographic that we label ourselves with. We are of God and Love for that is all there is. The one truth is “God Is” I have been willing to give away all else to know this. I pray this serves. It has helped me to write it down. Thank you. Namaste~

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