Chapter Two

Soar above life and look at the big picture.
The Eagle; Spirit, Integrity, Connection to the Angelic Realm
The second card in the reading is representative of the ego of the one being read for.

So this chapter is going to be about me. I know that speaking about yourself is not the appropriate thing to do in current writing protocols but I am going to not let that keep me from my objective here. And let me state that my view of myself is altering daily. It is odd and yet it seems natural and truer somehow.
I find myself saying “Wow” as I read the cards because they surprise me. I do place my faith in them, inasmuch as I interpret them correctly. I am fairly new at this, but I hope that the “Wow” never leaves, because it is like a charge to my spirit that says “Yes, you are connected to something much bigger than the body you see in the mirror before you”.
The eagle was one of the first cards that I ever saw in this deck and it struck a cord in me that was significant. It came along with the bee and the bee has significance to me; as my name is Debra and its meaning is the bee, with its origin in Israel and Hebrew. Both cards were in my first reading and just touched my heart somehow.
I do feel that I am working with assistance that is unseen. There are many who are helping me put this together. I feel them in different ways at different times. I have a sense of my other “selves”, be they my personal past lives or the witness of the oneness that I have will all that is, or angels and guides, I do not know. I do know that this person in this flesh is not able to claim full authorship to this work. “With the eagle’s help and guidance, you can soar above life to see the larger vista.” This has been vital for me to do the work that I have come here to do and I believe this requires divine help.
With my opportunity to see the states I was once again reminded of the personality traits that come with the different geographical environments that we are raised in. It is like a certain energy is projected onto us from the very ground around us. The mountains make us hearty and daring. The snow and cold make us sturdy and preparers. The ocean makes us in awe of life and willing to live it come what may. These are some of the environments that I have lived in and the attributes of the local culture I have observed.
On returning from California I found some of the fun and courage to step out in life stirred in my soul and I wore hoop earrings for the first time. Little things that can give us a sense of identity and definition. The intention of my writing is not for fortune or fame. I suspect those also come with their share of challenges. The world has taken relationship after relationship from parent to partner from me many times over. I find little comfort in people relationships anymore and know them to be prone to self-destruction, even the seemingly kindest. At the same time, I do bask in the delight of human comforts (safety, shelter, food, etc) and pleasures and consider nature to be a keen source of comfort and strength.
Growing up I had faith and hope that someone or some society out there had a clue what they were talking about and could give me some answers that made sense and worked for everyone. I have yet to find that person or society. That does not mean I have given up on society. My writing should testify of that. When I feel that no one will care about what I have to share I remember that God believes in humanity and its ability to heal, in its own good time.
It seems when humanity comes in the circle it seems I must give up some sense of my own being to participate. Often I am asked to give up my need for fairness and treating others with kindness because people like to find someone in their life that they can project their unhappiness onto. This is very difficult to deal with for an empath, like me, who feels the hurt and rejection that others receive, as well as my own.
I grew up with fair skin and, though my freckles got me teased as a child, in America where I have lived I have been among the privileged. Sometimes, just the overlooked but I have gotten by. I have usually been able to get the job or education that I wanted. Even with that, there is a sense of the glass fun house, because no one has any real guidance or answers for another person that does not lend to taking away our spirit or personal integrity. (And for those who do not agree and think there is peace here but not there, you are living in a fabrication of denial for we are all privy to the same energy system. one lost is all lost. I speak not from me, my ego, but for those who would hold us up to see over the horizon into a better place psychologically.)
I have to say that trying to form words for the context of what I am understanding is difficult. One because of the speed with which new ideas come to me and secondly because I find myself shifting my own perspective and coming out of the world. I find myself wanting to change my vocabulary, taking words and ideas out of my head, as well as, developing new words and symbolism for viewing the world.
Just for clarification let me state that I believe in God. Ops, I know; the book slammed shut, and end of discussion”. But let me clarify that living in this belief and living my life has allowed me to come back full circle to my infant state of mental realization that all the world is me and it was created for me to know myself and to screw me over so bad, that I would have to admit that I am the creator of it all. Well that is my long, and short, story anyway.
I will admit that it is difficult to define or explain what I want to say from a linear, spacial, separated delusional world, but that is what I have given myself and so I work with it. I accept the God that I am and while a small part of that awareness speaks of Him as beyond or outside myself I am finding more and more space in my heart and inner being to embrace Him as me and creator of this illusion.
My history of faith is Christian and I joined the Mormon’s when I was twenty-seven years old. I was active and diligent in my pursuit of repentance and understanding for over thirty years. They still hold a dear place in my heart but I have found their teachings stifling to my own spiritual growth. It is understandable for I believe they hold a significant place in the world to give balance to a very unstable human psyche. I have been a student of A Course In Miracles (ACIM) for four years as well.
In my early fifties, after my world had crashed in a blast of mass destruction, I wrote three adult books and four children’s books. They were the culmination of my understanding of the world at that time in my life. They are filled with the words of a seeker of truth from an LDS, Christian, by-the-book mentality, and written with great love and respect for my posterity and the world at large. I also did about four years of a radio show on scriptures and my review of life, shared to a great extent as I had home-taught my children. I have taken a few years sabbatical from that work as I digested the truths I found in ACIM.
I have attempted to find a church home or a people among whom I could work, study, serve, learn, and teach. But I have not been successful. I still have a great desire to serve and share God’s blessings with humanity. I will continue to do so as guided by the Spirit. Currently, I know that I must share what burns within me. I understand that doing so will make room for greater understanding and that brings me great joy, no matter the hardship or duration of this process.
I feel as if I exist in a place not quite on the earth, for here only sorrow and have and have-nots seem to exist. I like the place that I am in. It is not mystical or out-of-body per se. I have asked that I be able to give a testimony from a place of faith rather than visions or other “extra” phenomenon. That being said, I believe in all forms of manifestation, both physical and esoteric. I believe that this which we consider solid and stable as manifested by the five senses is a collectively agreed upon creation of the Son of God and all His diverse manifestations (thoughts/you and me). I do expect that more and more esoteric experiences are on the way to me.
This place I walk in is a place that Jesus and the Holy Spirit have given me to be able to be here with you and still gain understanding in that which is the truth while having the ability to share it with you. It has been given to me over a lifetime of developing a relationship with that which we know as the Godhead, being The Father, The Son, and The Holy Ghost, which I also see as One, even as You and I. As an Empath the pain that I feel in the world is way too great for me to carry and several years ago I gave it to the Holy Ghost to carry for me. He keeps me mindful of it without allowing it to overwhelm and crush me and my ability to serve humanity here and on the other side of the veil.
I believe in the yin and yang concept of this sphere and that in the latter days the second coming of Christ will be ignited by a female. It makes sense to me, as Jesus brought our attention to who we truly are, which is The Christ, and spoke to us about physical things such as the fact that there is no death. The woman would bring the psychological advancement and recognition that would move us into a more gentle existence and lifestyle toward ourselves and others. Her mantra will go to past generations and those yet to come, as well as include her own generation. Her mantra will be forgiveness and gratitude. I may or may not be that individual ego persona but I will give my all to it and pave the way for another if that need be.
Forgiveness and gratitude are the two components that will detonate the atomic bomb that Einstein was looking for when he was looking for the formula to make people fall in love. The difference that will give her words power is that she will bring Christ to the forefront of humanities attention in a way that he has never been there before. She will have the ability to get people to give Christ the focused attention of forgiveness and gratitude.
This will be a woman who has forgiven herself some of the saddest and offensive of sins to mankind, at least for her gender; she will forgive herself of sexual sin. Her testimony will be so strong and so simple that it will resonate with others. They will be drawn to her truth like a magnet. It will be unresistable because that which is in each of Christ’s creations will feel the impact of the truthfulness of her message. It may be well after my death that the results are seen but to put out the word is the first step.
Because of the pain and cries of humanity that she would experience as an empath, she would be lifted by the Spirit above societal norms. She would have to be intelligent without having been transfixed, addicted to, or mesmerized by the societal culture of clout, name, fame, education, or position. This would require time in the world to experience these things and develop strength through faith in that which is not seen here. It would require the strength of character and experience to understand what the world has to offer and choose something better.
She would have to be an individual who was intelligent and a self-starter. A basic requirement would be that she able to control her self-talk and understand the challenge that this may bring so that she would have compassion toward those she seeks to influence. It would have to take self-talk clearing well below a surface level. Affirmations, EFT, NLP all are available for her to change bad tapes developed in the youth and formative years.
She would be experienced in walking the walk of sacred teachings and willing to prove herself to meet this challenge. The muscles she would need to develop would be found in challenges of relationship, mental, emotional, and cultural, with an understanding of basic financial matters.
A Course In Miracles (ACIM), which I affectionately call “the blue book”, teaches if only one person gets the meaning of these teachings and lives it literally, they would not have to speak to anyone, but just by being in the world he would begin the catalyst that would transmit that ripple around the world and cause the shift that humanity is so desperately calling out for. I can do no less than to strive to be this individual. It would not be one true personality but lifetimes and multitudes of manifestations that have led to a point where the vortex lined up the types of experiences and witnesses that would create such an individual manifestation from Christ, under the direction of His eldest, Jesus.
To me, Jesus is my big brother and advocate with the Holy Spirit and Christ. I no longer consider him my advocate to The Father of Christ, who I call God, though he is the leader of the atonement. Jesus has indeed been my guide to remembering God, but my connection with The Father of Christ is unquestionable and complete even though I may have forgotten that for a time.
And yes, I still do occasionally, as I get caught up in the ego and forget my maker, though this happens on rarer occasions now. I do not feel as if I am my emotions or even that my actions or words need to confess this separation. This is because I do believe that I am on an ordained path that was determined before I got here, though I still have an influence on what comes to pass.
I am of God. There is nothing that alters that. It is so for all creation. We are all and each God. We are one with Him, as Jesus was and is. That which appears to be dark, or troublesome or contrast is simply part of the beautiful orchestration of the witness of God’s love for His Son and the fact that He will not wake him rudely. Every whim that he wishes to experience will be given to him through his manifestations, but they can do no harm to the only truth which is God’s love for him. All the angst, sorrow, and suffering that man believes he has endured is but his nightmare; his, to release to the witness of God’s love for His Son whom he is.
If there is still a question as to why I am reading cards now when my background is of Christian training and belief, I will attempt to explain. I feel it is pertinent to what I am trying to share. It was the death of my daughter, and the spiritual guidance I received before and after her death, that pulled me into a state of seeking that went beyond the Bible and The Book of Mormon. I was well-studied in both; thirty-five times with The Book of Mormon. I sensed there would be greater things that I would need to be aware of if I was to endure the next chapters of my life. Her death gave me the courage to step into that which I had thought of as fearful, and even dangerous, or yes, “Of the Devil”.
Near-death experiences, channelling and its possibilities, as well as advice from those beyond the veil, all of these came into my world, with a force, as I grappled with my daughter’s impending death and the aftermath. My daughter herself was close to that which is not seen and had interest for some time. I have felt her presence and guidance at times since her passing in these areas. It seems like she is saying, “Its ok mom, this will help you understand”.
I dabbled in astrology occasionally for fun because it was a big thing for the family I still kept in touch with. My concern for it was not the validity, but the ability to really understand it, because I do see it as a rather precise science. I was always a seeker of a better understanding of who and what I am and I felt no way qualified to say I had all the answers. The best I could leave my children would be an example of a seeker. Basically, I study and read as guided by the Spirit, and then I take it with a grain of salt and see what the Spirit teaches me as things unfold.
I had always felt that card reading and tea leaf reading of my aunts and grandmothers were somehow wrapped up in the superstition, chemical abuse, and incestual insanity of my place of earthly origin. Messages with double meanings were around me continually it seemed. As a teen, this help from “the other side” was something that I respected enough as truth that I stayed clear of, because I felt a dark side as well, that I wanted no part of. One of the first things I did after my daughter passed was to get a free numerology reading of myself and my children. I think my cousin put up the post on Facebook. The scriptures simply were not enough, I needed something else to chew on. I had faith, but I also needed to be actively growing and my heart knew what that felt like. To be given the scriptures only as others interpret them is stifling to me. If scriptures are real, and I do believe they are, then it means that God speaks to His Children and not just yesterday, today, as well! Through many venues!
The scriptures say you will grow in confidence and that was offensive to so many of my leaders in the church(es). I had to stay under an umbrella of the leadership. I did not fit there any longer. I needed more specific information and so I went to my roots; the cards that had been used by my great-grandmother and that my father misused when he told me my first marriage would end up in divorce after a card reading. This was not something that he had any business in and did not help in my relationship with him or my husband. So; maybe instinctively, may be guided by my daughter, maybe out of desperation to find something to hang on to that could shed a bit of light on the road ahead I looked for answers as I felt guided, by the Spirit and by the Lord.
It was not something I jumped into, but I went prayerfully. Waiting, sometimes months, for the Spirit to continue to say it was okay to check this out. Slow and steady; research and more research. Listen to the Spirit. One step at a time. I do this yet today as I have for many years.
Card reading is a tool with the ability to bring people or the consciousness of Christ together; the living yes, but even more so those that are unseen in this dimension. The cards open the doorway to an opportunity to hear our own voice and the divine within us. This is a huge part of what draws me to them. It is not the me of the ego, but me of the divine. If, I do it from a place of integrity, that is. There are those who will simply know how to work the system and how to use the emotions and appetites of the ego to build or crush others for personal gain. I will not discount a tool because another misuses it.
Basically, I believe, that the whole world and all that is given to me to be aware of, is for my learning, in perfect order and timing according to Heavenly Father’s plan. Therefore things like numerology, card reading, astrology, scripture study, fasting, energy work, study, pondering, prayer, and meditation, etc. tell the divine source and unseen helpers that I am willing to hear, feel, and listen to their guidance. Personally, I do this with Jesus as my chosen lead-companion, because I do feel that there are misguided and confused entities in the spirit world of the unseen, just as there are here in the headlines of the day that testify of the confusion and despair among the children of men. Again, these are all tools to allow me to discern truth from errand to function in an otherwise nonsensical world.
I watched Charlie St. Cloud recently. There is a quote from the film, “At some point, we have to let go”. I do not believe this. There is no letting go. That is the fabrication. We are one, not divided, separated entities. As a mother, I know this with everything I am.
“Why were you saved?”, is another quote from the show that strikes at my heart and gut very big. Why were you saved? Could I have been saved from an attempted suicide, when I felt incapable of giving my children what they needed in this insane world, in 1976 to bring forth what I am trying to bring?
I drew a card, just one (12 November 2017) to see if the angels would give me the answer. I drew the Four of Raphael. Seek other possibilities; something esoteric perhaps,

instead of the fairy tales of my youth and the lies of my adulthood? Look for the magic in life. Magic of a divine nature instead of the mirrors and whistles of so-called life on earth? Be aware of your own emotions. Something tells me YES, I was preserved and allowed to remain here because I would continue to seek the answer and not settle. I would get it and not fall away from fulfilling the measure of it and sending it out into the world.
What we live here tells us what we do not want for ourselves. When we find what offends us, it gives us the opportunity to understand that it is not so, it cannot be, and know that something else is at work.
In summary: The second card in the reading is representative of the ego of the one being read for.
The Eagle symbolizes spirit, integrity, and connection to the angelic realm.
The spiritual world is the real one – the physical world is the dream. The Eagle reminds us to be sure to make conscious contact with the divine, in other words, prayer, or if you are able and practised, communion where you live in the knowledge of the whisper of Spirit.
Choices made with the Eagle or with a view of the bigger picture (which Spirit holds), as you soar above the innuendo and social norms and historical protocol of the place of your mortal birth, are made with integrity. You want to honor your highest self, which is again held safe and sacred by Spirit.
This is how I choose to live my life. I could not ask for any better commendation for the work I feel I have been called to then to have the angels confirm that this is where I walk and where I need to keep myself. I must say it is a drive inside of me that I cannot stop for anyone or anything. I say this not to boast, but because it is my calling, my mission, my life’s purpose.
I no longer find myself getting hung up on exactness of action (i.e. being vegan or church attending) knowing what is right for me will come in time, but I do focus on keeping my mental state connected to the divine guidance of the Spirit because He knows the all about me and what is in my best interest and in the best interest of those I serve/love and will direct me accordingly.
Is it impudent of me to suggest that we each have this calling and must step into this role for ourselves and those we have stewardship over? I do not believe so, for the Sonship is many, not one individual, and more than that, it is the whole of us, each individual intelligence deciding for ourselves to accept the presence of the Love of God in our lives and in the lives of those around us.
When we accept the Love of God for ourselves we are able to witness it in the lives of others around us and offer absolute forgiveness for anything they may offer us that does not appear to encompass that Love.

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Chapter One

Live freely, the adventure is just beginning.
The Cat; Independent, Healthy Boundaries, Nine Lives
The first card in the reading would restate the question for the card reading, which was “How do I get my message out there and received”.

I had had a few months to wait once I signed up for my seminar. I was going to write a sixty page outline of what I wanted to share, but it never came together. Other things seemed to take presidence. I knew I was following the Spirit, not just procrastinating, so I had to let go and let God and those who knew the whole picture direct me. Even the twenty page outline did not manifest itself. However, when I did the reading of the cards on the twenty-seventh day of September in the year two thousand seventeen, I knew why. The book flashed itself before me and it was in a form that had the simplicity in which I could speak of the chaotic and deep issues that were in my heart.
Little did I recall the effort it takes to bring the material to print or the evolution that would occur inside of me in the writing of it. Now, in the process, I recall one of Brendon’s teachings. Don’t forget that just because you had the first victory and you conquered your fear to do whatever (for me it was writing my first books in my fifties); you will still need to put forth that same effort, and maybe more, with the birthing of your next project or step. I cannot remember if he used the analogy of birthing or not, but it is a very real thing to me as a woman and publishing ones thoughts in book form can emotionally feel like giving birth.
I know that someone can tell me a truth that I do not understand yet, and if I am not ready, I simply will not hear it. That is really worth repeating. I know that someone can tell me a truth that I do not understand yet, and, if I am not ready, I simply will not hear it. This happens even among those who consider themselves very open minded seekers. It is also the argument that can stop a conversation between two individuals very rapidly. Here is where faith and a basic confidence in what you believe in at this moment is important. Trust me, the Spirit is attentive to your heart and where you are at in the moment and what you are willing to receive.
Even dear Brendon made some goofs from my perspective, during the seminar when he made fun of, not once, but at least two times from stage, his wife’s cats. Maybe it is a comedian’s prerogative to criticize that which is very dear to the heart of someone they love, but I do think this is a protocol that should be avoided. It makes me shudder to think that he does not realize what he may be doing to his relationship when he “tricks” her onto the stage before 1,500 people. And to use one’s charisma, popularity, and name on the rental for the hall, to push one’s political agenda, seems tacky and disrespectful to me. “Have the courage to say the hard truths” was his counsel to us. I wonder if he considers his status on Oprah’s team and on the cover of Success Magazine to put him above reproach? I hope not, for I mean no offence.
It is important to remember that we are all in the process of learning, which to his credit, Brendon admitted to during the conference. At least it seemed like that just before he told us he ran some sort of four-day marathon for us and dipped himself in a painful ice tub to be able to do the four-day conference. Somehow that seems to raise him up and shoot us down if we do not follow suit or take his advice. Maybe it is just the way I heard it.
To not recognize that each of us lives in our own world, manifested by how we choose to look at the world, is to do ourselves and the world a great disservice. I would suggest that the words on the card (independence and healthy boundaries) suggest that everyone, wherever they are in their understanding of life, maybe just where they need to be. That can be really hard to take; especially when we are aware of things like the Las Vegas shooting that occurred on October first of this year (2017).
It really demands to look at the big picture to feel at peace with this. perhaps in direct relation to the question I asked on how to share my witness with the world, I need to remember to claim my witness as mine and establish healthy boundaries for those who would strike it down and perhaps even with those who would agree with or desire to join with me, because this is not something that we will be able to ride into on someone else’s testimony or coat tales with. We will each need to come to an understanding of it ourselves and, our relationship to each other, before we will be able to enter the kingdom….yep, you got it…drum roll….of heaven.
One thing that I am still finding a bit challenging, is determining if I am speaking from the ego fabricated frame of mind or from the one who dwells in the presence of God’s love, as I read the cards. That is why I broke it out into this five card spread*. (See Appendage A for the just the card reading itself.) I may get inspired to create something clearer as I walk this walk, but for now, I will need to work with this possible faulty foundation in mind. This is the situation in all communication except with Spirit. Or at least when we communicate, as if we are separate.
Is it possible to have independence and not be separate? Only when we acknowledge absolute wholeness, completeness, and (for this purpose), the perfection of ourselves individually, and that it comes because we are of God. I think the infancy stage of the body is a conjuncture of the ego. Part of the fabrication to create the illusion that we are separate beings and that we are somehow dependent on others; which, when you think about it, is actually the truth turned inside out. Our true wholeness encompasses all of creation. Nothing can be lacking because it is of God. He takes no emotional part in this realm, because it is a fabrication, yet we, even in our current nightmarish state, have Him within us.
I recall one time when I was home alone, I was rocking my baby, nursing my eldest daughter. I looked into her eyes with the desire to tell her that I would do my very best with my limited capacities. It was a mindset to speak to her of my heart and my insecurities. What I saw, in her eyes, shook me to the core. I knew that there was an intelligent being in that little body. One that had, at least as much knowledge as I did, and on reflection maybe more at that time. It was an alarming awareness which I continue to learn from.
Perhaps if I had had family support or structure I would not have had that private moment, when I was open to seeing who she really was, so that I could assess how best I could serve her. I do give thanks for that supposed lack in my life because she taught me incredible things; as have all my children and grandchildren, and that continues to today. She is no longer in the world of the flesh, and while I feel her presence, and my message is also for those in the dimension where she has consciousness, I reach for a higher place that is right here, or wherever we visualize ourselves to be. It is the preparatory place for being completely united once again, mind, body, and spirit, with God.
The question occurs to me today, why did I not see myself, as I saw my daughter? Having come into the world with an identity that did not need to be created by those to whom I was birthed or reared. Instead, I had created a monster self of labels that came from multitudes of caregivers, teachers, classmates, television shows, etc. I saw myself as “not enough” in a world of those who knew what I did not know. I truly lived a distinctive double standard, before the Spirit was able to teach me, of our similarities and completeness before God.
Our finite and linearly fabricated consciousnesses have difficulty understanding that which quantum physics teaches, but that does not eliminate its truth. So how do I tell the world this is just a fabrication? Especially when I live yet in the fabrication myself? This is where I feel that faith and Spirit help us individually to transcend this. All of us have access to our gut feelings, our instincts, our inspiration, and the voice of Spirit. It is quieted and not talked about in so many circles. Even where it is recognized we are still advised to close it down so that we meet the wishes of those in charge at the moment. How many organizations or churches do you belong to where you have seen this?
And how do I get heard above the addiction to Oprah, Ellen, Tony, Brendon, and so many others? There has been a great deal of tearing down of the icons and saviors, that people wish to live in the limelight of, so as not to be aware of their own light. Priests, football players, government officials have come crashing from their pedestals in the past several decades. Still, there is no end to the list of saviors that the world would look to, as a whole. Yet the vital teaching is to recognize that you are the savior, in your sphere, and by living that reality, you teach others that they are the saviors in their spheres of influence.
The mouths of the prophets have been closed. By this I mean individuals. You cannot go anywhere and speak an opinion without using the name of some movie, multi-millionaire, or publicly recognized personality, or you look the fool.
I wish to open minds, to the idea that this is the fabrication, and we each have the ability to heal the fabrication and step into a place of creating where heaven lies, right here in the flesh. This is not unlike what Abraham Hicks has been teaching with the Law of Attraction for a few decades now. I want to take that concept even further, and focus it on bringing in the shift that has been prophesied in so many faiths.
While living in the fabrication we will have to accept the present conditions and vernacular, or manner of speaking and relating, that the truth may be realized in a gradual sense. Even while knowing that gradual, is a possibility only in the fabrication of time and space and division.
Here is where it gets a little touchy. Will we simply be absorbed into the mentality, essence, and presence of God, to lose entirely, our witness of human existence as the eastern religions seem to suggest? Or, will we recognize that He is of us and We are of Him and that We were created by the original Being, to manifest indefinitely for His/Her pleasure and Ours. I suspect that sharing the joy and experience is a delight even to God, or Source; which is the term Abraham Hicks uses.
About seven years ago, when I was first following Brendon Burchard, he spoke of being a self-proclaimed expert, and this was a fairly new attitude. It was part of the new reality we have been given through computers and other technology. Today there are webinars on every topic, free with good nuggets therein, as he (Brendon Burchard) taught us, and they are to get you to want to know more.
I do have to respect the way that our social consciousness behaves at this time. Specifically speaking to the need to have someone else tell us what we think and how we feel. In the past this has been seen in organized religion, though that is fading rapidly. In the recent past, as noted, we have followed sports stars or the latest movie craze or cartoon character; each of them teaching their own faith or philosophy. We follow those who have what we believe will bring us happiness be it fortune, fame, security, a sense of belonging, etc.
Those that have shared that sense of power that comes from “moving the energy in a room” or skills like Neuro-Linguistic Programming that give us an edge up on our “uneducated neighbor”, or computer skills to sell products and reap the rewards as people pass through your specific cyber “tole” way. We are still functioning in a very dog eat dog kind of world, for as haves and have-nots is still the way we choose to see ourselves. We are set to leave that, and worse, to our children. And ourselves, if you, as I do, believe in reincarnation.
Humans are addicted creatures in this state of fabrication. Their ego existence relies on it. Addiction to that which seems to provide strength in the fabrication, or addiction that seems to destroy that which we have been given or created in this fabrication; either way it is false and not lasting. Addiction, of any sort, only leads to a craving for more, until it washes away our common sense. We see this in our public representatives and icons more and more. Eventually, we are left with our faults glaring openly before the masses and yet, as a mass (or should I say “mob”) we are willing to forgive them because they had the voice that gave us so much; the voice that fed our yearning for recognition and superiority.
Jesus and Hitler used this technique, although Jesus’ audience was not as big at the time. These things are still what humanity wants to glamorize and follow. In ACIM Jesus says that a good teacher, a true teacher, wants the student to outgrow them. When instead we feed the ego or the fabrication there is no satiation of the addiction to the power that teaching/controlling gives.
This power will pass as the body leaves us. Influence, yes, like Louise L. Hay and Wayne Dyer, but even that influence needs to be allowed to segue for the guidance of the Spirit for those yet among the ones who walk in the wardrobe of the flesh. I wonder if the Zombie Apocolypse has something to do with the state we live in as we function in a world created by those who have moved on and created a sort of living dead society as we do not allow this moment and the living to create our present gifts. We do not have to throw all of yesterday out but let’s keep only what was good and allow ourselves to Be now.
Even being a person of integrity and claiming one way is correct after giving so much good in another direction is a form of power play. Many a lover does this to their partner and it has been done by people of celebrity also. I am not seeking to throw stones. It would not serve me. My purpose is to identify the challenge of communicating publically with a concept or idea that serves all of us when the fabrication gives us so many false witnesses of truth.
Doreen Virtue is a woman of drive and discipline. Her three doctorate degrees testify of that. Her ability to do hard work and share things from a spiritual source is obvious in her many programs, books, and cards of which I have five. She has chosen to say Jesus has called her to something else; though in listening to the testimony of her vision of Jesus, I neither saw nor heard anything to suggest anything other than a witness that to serve others without ego was what Jesus was teaching.
I feel she may have allowed herself to yield to social influence because of her desire to have a social environment where she feels she may exercise her own creativity. The voice of the other can seem very comforting when we feel trapped. Her wardrobe witnesses that she has allowed herself to be used as an advertisement. And, while there are those who have tackled the mountain of being an ad while maintaining their own integrity, I suspect it is a gruelling journey.
I believe that her shift may have more to do with her trying to restore her personal power than that Jesus has called her to renounce her previous work as it seems to some of us to be the case. I had only known of her for about four months before she made her announcement and I found comfort in hearing the word of God and prayer. Many of us send her prayers and we wish her safe journeys of discovery and abundance.
Seeing this transition I thought this would give me the crack in the door that I needed to be able to talk about Christ again. I also knew that I wanted to take the Angel Tarot Card Reading certification course being offered at Hay House. Radleigh Valentine has made the course fun. I have observed the shift that occurred publically and am well aware that this had been being prepared for some time. I wish Doreen every good thing as she establishes herself in a different direction or even another if she feels so directed.
When we teach from a true place we stabilize and feel joy in the success of another and their flight. And do not need to continue to maintain the status quo of “being on top”. We recognize that another’s success is our own, as another’s failure or loss is as well. This comes from an awareness that there is no separation among people. Sadly, this is not the attitude that is taught from the stages of those who would lead us at this time.
In the beautiful sunshine on the veranda overlooking the bay, I chatted with another attendee at the seminar. She was quite the adventurer and achiever in her own right apparently as she spoke of books and marathons. She told me how someone who had attempted to get people to bring music to those who were in hospice and how it was shunned and scoffed at first by those who should have seen its benefit the most. She went on to say that over time this had been overcome and currently there were several choirs and more organized all the time to meet this sensitive need. It was a very inspiring story and I asked her if I might comment on it in a book I was writing.
The conversation went well until I clarified that I was going to present some new insight on Christ and Jesus that could help set the world aright. There was no allowance for discussion after that. Apparently, we have established that all that needs to be said about this paradigm has been discussed. The conversation became very superficial after that.
It seems to me that Jesus and Christ have been taboo discussions probably since Oprah declared that Jesus did not come to earth to die upon the cross; such is the power of an icon and their influence on those who follow them. Interestingly, I have to say that this influence may have been felt even into very established Biblical organizations because I experienced this in the Mormon church, as an adult, for over thirty years as well.
Even though Ophrah is doing what she can to claim her own voice and show us how to do that, there are those who choose not to think for themselves. They choose instead to simply jump on her bandwagon of being and negate themselves. And then those with dollar signs, instead of eyes, who see her influence as persuasion of the masses to purchase and thus do their part to push to power addiction on her, as do those who make the purchases. In this place of fabrication with haves and have-nots, it is very understandable that this would happen. I do not wish to be a part of this. It is not in alignment with what we truly are. We are each meant to be creators of our own world, and our own satisfaction and enjoyment, as children of God.
Another woman expressed overcoming obstacles and living the dream of following your heart; even though the financial rewards she was hoping for had not yet fully manifested. She shared her witness of the futility of having enough answers by the example of bringing up a daughter who had abundance in so many ways and yet struggled with a lengthy stretch of suicidal inclination that was very challenging for the parents.
“How could that happen?”, seemed to be her statement. I expressed my concern that no one really wanted to have answers to these kinds of questions. She declared that she would like to understand, but I could feel the wall of doubt she had against such a possibility, nonetheless, I will try to bring them forward. I truly believe that there are answers and I have a personal witness of this form of heartbreak, both from the perspective of one who has lived in a state of suicidal mentality for at least forty-odd years, as well as living with a suicidal step-mom for many years, and as a mother of a suicidal adult child.
For me, these thoughts came in response to feeling a sense of futility in being of value in a society I could make no sense out of. Currently, I feel the challenge of raising the human consciousness out of its need to self-destruct and the insistence that mankind maintains of it right to suffer and be in punished by diverse forms of pain. This is why I believe that we need to acknowledge one enemy so that we have a chance to unite as a whole entity and people despite our differences. We will then be able to move forward into a totally new experience of abundance and never-ending joy and celebration.
My message was not the only thing on my mind as I journeyed toward the west coast. Since I was getting the opportunity to go back to the place of my birth and my teenage years (I was in the Midwest, Minnesota specifically from six to twelve.) I wanted to go by the places that I felt were significant. I got the address of my parents from my birth certificate and made sure it went with me.
I followed the white lines on the road and tail lights of slower trucks into the mountains outside Denver. I had not travelled this way before as far as I could remember but I know my fear of heights that I discovered while I lived in Utah for a short while. Because of rain, and a few unproductive attempts to stop, I ended up spending the night in Georgetown, Colorado. I woke to find myself in a beautiful mountain community that I just had to explore before heading out. It turned out to be nearly dark when I set off again but my heart was full with my adventures and the idea of seeing the majesty of the mountains before I reached my destination really made me feel as if it would put me over the edge of my tolerance. Pacing myself and enjoying the beauty of the day I had just had made more sense.
I had adventures before I actually got to California and my birthplace which I will speak of in future chapters. For now, I choose to recall finding the place where my parents had lived when I was born. I breathed in the energy of the weather and the community. I envisioned what it may have looked like back in the day. I considered two adults; though, while my father was out of his Korean War service at 26 and my mother was just 20, though she had had a boy and girl a few years before I came along. They had lives that were filled and tortured already, yet they had the hope to bring in a new child. Or was it really just lust? Believe it or not, I do not wish to judge, I only wish to acknowledge life as we consider this fabrication to be as honestly and clearly as I can. Either way, it mattered not to my enjoyment of being in the place they would have walked when I was at their mercy for my survival. Today, my father watches from his place in the spirit world and my mother resides in a US state that I have never seen. Our paths divided long ago and I am okay with that.
Having an illegitimate baby which was not exactly a good thing in those days, but neither was being one-fourth Native American or from alcoholic parents. Another child was to be born before the wedding and a separation and divorce followed soon after. Did these things create who I was or did they give food and fodder for the ego identity that I would carry into this fabrication? I walked around the neighborhood and took photos. There is an incredible amount of beautiful latino influence there.
There was also a local fast food place that had photos from near the year of my birth that I was able to soak in. I got a meal because the sign boasted of pastrami sandwiches and when I went inside to order I could smell the moist pastrami that I recalled from my junior high days in California. I watched as the man put that wonderful robust and moist pastrami on the grill and dried it out. Sadly the sandwich was not quite as I remembered. The moist steamed bun and dripping pastrami juices were absent.
I do believe that memories of our past may be changed for our benefit in this place of fabrication. Take the good and embellish it. Why not? It is food for the soul and the senses. Let us be children, let us rejoice! And let us not forget that this is but a fabrication and let us remember from where it comes.
I was able to visit the junior high and high school that I had attended. At least I walked around them. Again, the subtle, quiet memories of relationships and struggles where present. Not everything was familiar. In my day the chain link fence, which on the back of the high school had to be at least twenty feet high was not in my memory banks that I could access at the moment. As a foster child first, with an aunt and then with a locally licensed couple I felt odd and disengaged from others. Starting over, again and again, was nothing new to me. Autumn had become my favorite season early in life because it meant the opportunity of better experiences. I was the eternal optimist even then.
The little corner hamburger shop I worked at my last year of high school was now a convenient store and gas station. The main window we served the public from still stood and I could envision me taking orders for hamburgers according to your liking, even though the owner had created fifty varieties for your palates’ enjoyment. Forty-five years did not erase the memory or my thrill at having had the experience.
When I speak of the fabrication I do not mean that we must give up the moments that brought us pleasure, elation, or even challenge. I mean only that we do have the opportunity to embrace that which we want and carry it with us and let the other fall away for the choice of influence has always been ours. That is inherent in our position as children of God/Source.
I do believe that it is important to claim our own sovereignty in that we each must govern ourselves and make decisions for ourselves. We also want to remember that this is not a solo journey and we came willingly to serve others. I firmly believe that goes for those who have done the most dastardly deeds as well. We each play a significant role in this fabrication towards restoration to recollect who we truly are. Do not fault yourself for not having all the truth at this moment. And know that truth will be given you by the Spirit as requested and as is in line with the timing of the fullness of the plan of salvation and restoration.
In summary: The first card in the reading is the situation or question restated.
The Cat encourages independent, healthy boundaries. And a multitude of lives; which we can see in the many people upon the earth and also in the many ways that we might choose to live our own lives.
This is who I will share my message with and is truly the essence of the message I bare. It reminds me as well that it is truly One that I wish to speak to although they appear to be in many forms. The idea that one life is sufficient to learn all that a soul craves to understand is not a realistic concept in my mind. The impact I am looking for will influence all who have experienced time forward and back. And it will affect all fabrication; all that we are able to perceive, not just the human form.
The card reminds us not to obsess about anything as obsession may drive it away. Obsession is challenging to me because it can be confused with what you are passionate about. I to choose to understand this as I would do well not to get disturbed by what I perceive currently as imperfections in the world. I do not believe this means to not acknowledge them, rather to not perceive of them as real or lasting.
Perhaps this card is Spirits way of reminding me to remember that the ones that I speak to will be able to hear what I am sharing regardless of when they do or what their present occupation or circumstances may be.


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I was worried about going. I mean, I had been suicidal for years and it would be easy to have an accident in the mountains. Would my mind play tricks on me and find a way to end this nonsense? Then there was the coast. The weather where I could survive if I just ran away. It was stomping grounds of my early years. I had been told I was not wanted here and that I should kill myself by someone I cared for very much. Hmm.
My capacity for working for a living in the world of illusion was fading away. I just did not see the purpose. I did not want to continue to feed the frenzy of discontent, neglect, and abuse that I saw all around me. Did I have enough fight and faith left in me? I had tried so many times.
One more time maybe; maybe I would find someone who would give a damn. Maybe I would find someone who would want to know what we are really doing here and our assignment from the Creator of creators to bring His Son into the Light.
So I went. I drove to San Diego, California and crossed the mountains at night so that I would not be overwhelmed and unable to get to my destination. You see, I have a terrific fear of height. Oh, my!
I did tap (EFT, Emotional Freedom Technique) on it a few rounds before I actually went into the mountains so that it would not get the best of me and I have to admit it lessened the fear quite a bit. Thanks to the tapping I was able to enjoy much of the majesty of my surroundings on the trip home.
I like that word; majesty… A study of words and their meanings has been a hobby of mine; really, it is an obsession. I take nothing for granted in trying to understand others. The dictionary has become an important resource for me as I understand that the meaning I put to a word may not be the meaning another has for it.
Now, majesty, at first I spelt it with a “g”. It sort of reminded me of magic. I looked it up to be sure and changed it. I still like “magesty” because magic is a lot of what this world we live in is about. Mirrors and illusions…
The majesty of the mountains bears witness of the destructive capabilities of the ego, for they were created, according to some legends anyway, when the earth shook in defiance and shock at the crucifixion of the symbol (my interpretation) of the Son of God. Mountains were raised and valleys created to destroy those who thought they could destroy God’s Son and thus, God’s Love.
The mountains drew from me several powerful emotions as I drove through the Colorado highways and was met with vista after vista of incredible power. I felt awe. I felt tiny. As I reflected on that fact that I was of God I realized that I was capable of these things and more. And that was humbling and brought about a sense of bewilderment as well, because I often feel so disempowered, rather than empowered.
I claim to be nothing but a human with weaknesses like yourself. For example, I had not planned for sleeping quarters except what I had to have for the High-Performance Academy event in San Diego, California. I reserved a room for the night before the event and planned to check out of the hotel the last day of the event and make do there-after. It wasn’t a very well thought out plan. But thanks to a friend, I was able to rent a room for eleven of the fourteen days that it took me to get there and back. (Sleeping in my vehicle was my choice on the other days.) The last afternoon of driving I found a shop of delights and made purchases for self and family that ate up the money for the last stay. The adrenaline to return kept me alert and frequent stops to stretch and check my energies, not to mention the abundant caffeine I had on hand, allowed me to travel over a thousand miles in a twenty-four hour period. So, yeah, I do silly things.
What will I do or be now that I am back? I am not really sure I know or care. Here, though, I know my assignment and that is sufficient for the moment. To be a vessel of forgiveness. To myself and those around me. Does that mean that I do not see or acknowledge the incongruencies or that my burning desire to yell “FIRE” to the world has ended? No, I just understand that it is not my responsibility to tell anyone. Well, that is not so. It is my responsibility and privilege to tell; it just is not my responsibility to see that others listen.
This surprised me a bit and perhaps came about because I never made the connection with anyone that I felt really cared about what I might have to say at the seminar. Since then I have read in ACIM that it is important to share with others what we have understood so that we might gain further understanding and so that we may literally partake of the blessings of what we have come to know. “Listening to one Voice implies the decision to share It in order to hear It yourself.” (ACIM Text Ch 5) In the traditional Christian scriptures, we are told to bear witness after we have searched, pondered, prayed and received a witness by the Holy Spirit. I have personally experienced this many times and been very blessed by it in the form of inner peace and endurance.
While acknowledging that there are tragedies and individual and mass confusion, I still believe that everything is in order and in place. Sadly, not 12 hours after the seminar ended, there was a shooting at a Los Vegas concert. Still, I believe, it is already set to be undone; meaning the confusion, fear, and cartilage. The fear of The Son will be laid to rest. That was a given the instant that the confusion at His (Christ’s) creation began. His Father made the way and it was done. We are each a part of the healing process that occurs in the nightmarish sleep of The Son.
The ability of thought is intense. Mankind has been talking about this in many ways for some time. Continual communion with God is a goal to be sought for since it puts us in connection with the creator of life and not the creator of the chaos.
Otherwise, we are left to the devices of the ego that are self-sabotaging and erratic. Insanity is like air to me. Confusing messages with double, triple, or no meaning are the quotient of my earthly experience. There are others that know what I am talking about. Not that they would admit it in polite society, of course.
“You are wanted, no you’re not.” “This is the norm, no this is.” “If you go this way, you will be okay, well really, that is only in some imagined scenario that has already passed in the memory of the illusion of mankind.” Hmm, the double paradoxical bind. If you did not come into the world on that plateau, you would soon be forced to see the logical-insanity in it or create your own fantasy of quips and quotes that explained, and of course blamed, the nonsense on everything but, Almighty God or Source, or The Universe, “All That Is” or whatever you wanted to call it, where it really belongs.
If you did not come into a family of origin that was just plain insane and you knew it, perhaps you recall your own confusing messages. Or perhaps you are one of the haves that believes the rest are unworthy or not good enough or smart enough to get into a reasonable life. Then there are those who do blame the creator and in this way feel justified and find many excuses for taking advantage of creation in any form they fancy.
To be a god (rather than accepting you are The God) yourself is the more common, I believe. Then you can give meaning and acceptance to what you want and cast the rest away as dross (something regarded as worthless or useless) as you play god. And people will quarrel with you only so long about it, before they give you up as dross or throw meds at you or throw your person into a mental ward or prison, though, these places are filled to the brim.
Today we have a world full of gods. All created in the form of the true God, meaning in the mind and in our thoughts. Yet mankind has a great aversion to accepting the truth that they each are, in fact, God. Sadly, we seem to think that this God of Love needs to punish others. What a sad oxymoron.
We truly are responsible for what is in our realm of experience and we have the ability to alter it as we choose, yet we would rather blame it on another because the seeming power of the ego is so strong. Today’s answer is to just shun whatever does not fit in your view of the world, only let in that which agrees. Break off toxic relationships and negativity. How does this heal the state of separation that we feel? That has always been around in some form. That is what Abraham of the Bible was told to do when his father would have him sacrificed to the gods, ….go to the promised land.
Now, we need to be easy on ourselves here. After all, we are trained from infancy that we live in a linear world. This happens, then that, then that, and so on. From that perspective, it is easy to understand why mankind feels it acceptable to blame the past or others, or circumstances for where they find themselves today. In truth, time and space are part of the illusion created by ego as a place of eternal punishment of the Son of God for leaving His Father and thus committing a sin worthy of death.
The ego comes to earth formed and adjusts to linear time as we grow into society. The ego goes on with us in death and was formed in the spirit world where we first thought of ourselves as separate and fallen. This answers the great mystery statement I have pondered since my youth. “You will understand when you get older.” What I would understand is that no one has real answers and we basically live in a lose/lose world where all must ultimately die. Being a naturally altruistic person who wants everyone included this does sit well at all.
Now, do not give up on me here. I lay this introduction out so real and raw because I have found answers. And they bring me great joy and hope and I suspect in time, knowledge. I will not give up seeking to share them, live them, and expound them as long as I have “Being”. We truly are One having come from the mind of the Son who is one with The Father. All that I have studied or experienced to this date leaves me with my current hypothesis.
The ego was created by The Son in the moment of acknowledgement of self. As he manifested himself through each of us, that concept of wrongdoing and the need of sacrifice, self-denial, and punishment came into being and expanded (for the creation activity started by God, The Father of Christ, at His Son’s conception will not be stopped). The ego has fabricated a need to punish those who do not do his will. That will have been decided by our forefathers and expanded since the beginning of time. It is decided by parents, society, churches, schools, government, wars, famine, media, the popular news broadcasters or the latest hit TV or cartoon series.
It has a core based in the three temptations of mankind, discussed at length in “Reflections at Fifty” which is published on Amazon in ebook form under my pseudonym, Christa-Ann Faith Godsdaughter. The three temptations are; 1 Addiction, 2 Depression, and 3 Unrighteous Dominion which means hunger for power as manifested in bullying, shunning, and other forms of manipulation.
The birth of Christ that we await at Christmas is our individual awareness that The Christ is Me (and all that we see or witness). It is a joyful thing to be cherished with child-like enthusiasm and faith. In the meantime, we curse others for their stupidity and bind them (really ourselves) to chains of supposed wrongs for which they suffer in an eternal hell of our discomfort, forcing them to do without our company. How ironic for the one we fear and wish to harm is oneself, even if it appears we are seeing the wrongdoing in someone near or far, appearing to not be ourselves.
As I started to type up my book I put the title as Its All In The Cards. I realize that I need to change this. All is not found in any particular place. That is if you consider All to be absolute and complete knowingness of being, for as I stated Creation has been set in motion and will continue to evolve, at the same time it is inclusive with its Creator, our Grandfather. Not even He is aware of all for it is motion, according to my understanding, without the likes of time.
At any rate, I hold no claim to complete understanding other than to know that it all is encompassed in God and that I will yet learn along my path. Interestingly, at the same time, I believe, all knowledge is within each and every tiny molecule of manifested creation and even within every concept and corner of every thought ever conceived. Because God is the creator and He manifests in each of His creations, as well as their creations, infinitesimally.
When we speak of all with any concept, theory, or organization created by man we are speaking of the ego’s perception which causes corruption and dies because it is a fabrication. A fabrication of Christ that allowed himself to be punished for the sin worthy of death which was separating from God.
The only All that I am aware of is that God Is. Anything outside of that context is fiction or at least is subject to the scrutiny of the time, space, and philosophy it occupies; including Christ’s erroneous concept of the error of himself and mankind.
As stated, all is everywhere and in everything, for it is the God in us. In this human form, everything that we experience gives us bits of truth if we will only be mindful of it and allow the Holy Spirit to show it to us.
Let me state this clearly, I do not feel that I hold all the answers. However, I do believe that there is something caught in the “gears” of human consciousness that is preventing us from moving into our next state of being. And that is Christ’s original false thought of separation.
I just read again about the concept that they say that Einstein pondered for the last couple of decades of his life. The formula for the concept of love as the force and the only truth that pushes through all matter and thoughts that have any form of fear, doubt, or destruction and continually duplicates itself. I suggest that he would have given us this greatest of equations if he had only chosen to take it into himself completely. I am speaking of that concept of self-love.
That being said, I am not sure that the real door of love, has truly been unlocked by mankind before now. Or that it will be before each of us comes to the acceptance of the fact that we are saviors, by virtue of being of the body (meaning a part of the whole) of Christ, The Only Begotten Son of God. A huge revelation occurs when we realize that the God (whatever name you wish to acknowledge him by), that most of us have been thinking of, is Christ, not the Father of Christ.
A Course In Miracles states that it would require only one person, who fully understands, to break the cycle and send waves of understanding to the world. I believe each of us has that calling. This One Person would have had to recognize their own faults, forgiven themselves completely, and any others, who they feel have offended them or done something that they feel would be shameful. They would also have needed to be exposed to many, if not all, of life’s challenges in some form or another. I personally suspect that this One will be a female, for the male equivalent appeared in the flesh 2000 years ago.
It was on the fourth day of my journey that I did the reading. I was at the hotel. I had made it to the seminar. Now to get to the task of why I came, which was to find the avenue or means by which I would share what I had been given.
I used the deck, “Wisdom of Avalon” created by Colette Baron’Reid, a favorite of mine. Everything about it just calls to me, the illustrations, the concepts, and the idea of the impact of that which today is considered a myth.
A prayer and a question open the door to guidance from guides and angels. It not unlike the preparation of reading of scripture. I do believe that we have legions of helpers waiting for our intention and request for assistance. Just as Jesus had angels that would come to his assistance when, and if, called upon.
The question was “How do I share what I understand with the world?”
I had in mind a layout I had prepared which will give greater clarity to the reading.
Card one is the situation or question restated.
Card two is how it is reflected in the personal ego of the one getting the reading.
Card three is the effects on the Whole Christ Ego, meaning our united consciousness.
Card four is the message from the guides or ascended masters which to me would be Christ, Jesus, angels, guides, Mary, Buddha, and so many more, perhaps without number. This would be in accord with the beliefs of the person being read for.
Card five is the message from the outcome or message from the original creator of Christ, The Grandfather of you and I. The one that I would call God, though He has names without number and may even be known as the Higher Self. It also personifies the logical outcome of the situation.
Bear in mind that I do not believe Grandfather is concerned about where we are for in His sphere this is all resolved. He would not allow His Son to be in harm’s way. All was set right in the moment of confusion. Our restoration will come as we acknowledge that we are of Him though none is fully delivered from the illusion till all are delivered and set free. That includes Jesus.
This is my perception of the world today. It is my strategy or map for understanding the world around me. We are all united and what one of us does, anywhere in the world, or in any time frame affects all others. I recognize this in situations that seem to be outside of myself, as well as having a dawning awareness, that in my own existence, as well, is the ripple effect that manifests itself throughout all time and space. This, I believe, is why it is possible for the one to change the course of mankind, even to the folding up of space and time through forgiveness and the witness of our own divinity and godhood.
Jesus began the procedure in an accelerated form. It is in studying his words and developing a relationship with him that has led me to what I understand today. It is up to us to continue the work and bring about the Kingdom of God on the Earth. He still works with us and is as close as a prayer or a whisper.


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A Book Begun September 27, 2017 completed March 14, 2018


By Debi Simmons
Debra Yvonne Simmons
Deb, Debbie, Debra
Christa-Ann Faith Godsdaughter

Copy write. No portion of this intellectual work may be copied without the express, written permission from its creator.



To each member of the Christ Consciousness and “All That Is”.

I believe there is a path we agreed to before we got here. The Christ Conscience and our ego agreed to this journey prior to our experiencing it in the flesh. That said I know that we are not defined by that path. We can stay in it and accept it “as if ” that is what we are. And it may seem as if it never ends. This is not true, however, because we are of God, as is everything else.
The place of the confused ego is one of lack and decay; of have’s and have-nots. We have so much more power in our lives than we understand. Our ability to endure and to grow is incredible. Sadly, our ability “to seem” to cause ourselves harm is great as well.
The astrology chart gives you a sort of map that can show you who you are and give you ideas for how to use your natural gifts to best fulfil what your heart desires, as well as what some of your challenges may be. Even this does not define us truly. It only suggests possibilities because of this particular life and moment.
The length of our fingers and the size of our nose, while giving some identification for understanding the role that we took on here at this time, does not define who we intrinsically are. No demographic or circumstance can do this. We are Children of God, as a Whole we are The Son, and multiple possibilities of existence without God. Our consciousness is one of many that make up The Son or Creation (which is currently in an illusion or state of fabrication or untruth).
My study of A Course In Miracles, after a lifetime of study as a Christian (including 27 years as a non-denominational Christian and thirty years as a Mormon), has led me to understand that we may have just been very confused about who is our Father and who is our Grandfather.
Love is of our Grandfather, as well as being what we are and all that we are able to truly create. The Son got confused and thought He had offended His Father. So as The Son continued the process of creation we took on the parental attributes of feeling sinful and worthy of death (along with any other amount or form of torture we were capable of receiving). We have both the opportunity for joy in reality and hardship in the temporary state of illusion we find ourselves in.
Let me give an example of what I mean. While helping my eight-year-old granddaughter get ready for school she got upset with her puppy because he did not show affection in exactly the way she wanted him to. She huffed and puffed as she got ready to go and I said that she had the chance right then to decide if she was going to take anger with her into the rest of her day. I pointed out that she could choose love if she wanted to. It would be her gift to herself for the puppy would be happy come what may. She had gone clear to the car and shut the door, while I waited by the front door to her home. Suddenly she opened the car door and shouted, “Wait, I want to say goodbye!” Hugs and kisses were given, even putting a special play toy in the kennel, she went to school in a cheerful state. One where she would walk in peace and not in grumpiness stubbing her toe on every nuisance that crossed her path.
Sadly, she does not carry that into every moment of her life. However, as Gramma, I allowed her a witness of the gift of knowing how to nurture herself, regardless of what is going on outside of herself. This is what I wish to offer you. A reason to create a place where we are generous with others so that the universe might pour generosity back on your/our plate.

My message is simple. Perhaps, so simple it will not be easily heard.
You may not see the world the way I do.
Or you may have those persons, situations, or societal attitudes that you have decided are responsible for the insanity or that at least bring it about. That is all right.
I do hope that you will hear me out and at least give my perspective a chance.
I offer it only as a possibility, worth serious consideration.
To greater understanding for us all!


My Disclaimer

I believe that tending to the welfare of humanity is the greatest work that one can be about and this is my objective.
I may be crazy as a loon and just trying to find another way to hide from the pain of loss and PTSD that this world brings us.
I leave it to you to decide for yourself, my peace remains either way. Namaste~

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So Sweet When Spirit Reveals Why You Are Where You Are Part Two

A ghost in an environment that flows around me. This is how I feel.

I stand here as one identity and watch an incredible dance of life, destructive life, all around. It seeped into my consciousness a bit at a time. I had thought maybe it was only our family. Turns out that the same oddities that I observed in my home of origin are occurring in the world in a multitude of scenarios. People, hurting inside, striking out at others or themselves and allowing others to abuse them.

I believe that this is the cause of mental health issues and I do not believe it is an isolated or occasional thing. I believe we all live there and we have moments of ease perhaps, but I truly do believe that we are the ghosts that are haunting a reality that does not exist.

The connectedness that we long for will not be recognized until Christ is recognized in one another. The diversity of interests, talents and experiences is so great today that we will need to find that which hold in common if we want our society to function as a whole.

That commonality is The Christ that is each of us. Acknowledging him in ourselves and others will allow us to overcome the pettiness of envy and strife and give us a reason, a united front of protection. Protection from the negativity and self-abuse that Christ feels capable of and punishable for.

He is perfect, he is worthy, he is innocent for only God and His Love have any claim to truth. He is you and me united. The monstrous caricatures that we have made of ourselves and the ways that we hide from and shun one another will melt away as we see Christ in one another and respect the fact that we are One.


As Children of God, we have an inheritance and a place that cannot be usurped.

We have forgotten this and instead buy into the idea that we have fallen.

That in itself is our fall.

This belief that it is possible to step outside of God’s grace or His will.

Guilt and shame cause us to attack one another and ourselves.

We are living lives given by Christ so we could have experience that He/we desired.

Yes, and we will learn.

But this is not the meaning of life. It is the meaning of the illusion.

The meaning of true life is to bear witness of the Love of God for His Son.

I have had the privilege since I was a young child to live in the presence of God’s Love. I am not saying others have not had this privilege, for indeed, I believe that we all come from that place and we see it or refuse to see it according to the plan we have established before we became flesh and blood.

Either way, I hold it as a life-saving privilege and believe it envokes our sense of gratitude, even if we do not acknowledge God’s existence.

This is an assignment that we have all had. Acknowledging God’s love for His Son.

We will each tend to it. Granted some will be sooner and some later.

All will come to understand, and The Son will not truly waken, till the last one does.


The two extremes above allow for us to share.

It forces us to go inside to survive. To find our own inner strength.

It allows us to recognize the self in the other.

We think aloneness is sorrowful because we think we are separate.

This is the cause of all human suffering.

In time we will all come to understand and time will lose its meaning.


Till next time, Namaste~

God bless us every One!


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So Sweet When Spirit Reveals Why You Are Where You Are

Part One

Like a shadow or a fly on the wall. That is how I feel in life so many times. It could make me feel left out or alone. Loneliness is something I did not feel when I was younger, it was more a sense of not being able to speak a similar language. Or hiding from the truth that I lived each day and thinking others could not see it. You might say my loneliness muscle was distracted by the need to be with the family that I loved, along with the fear of what might happen if anyone found out.

It was in the Salt Lake Valley that I saw loneliness in the faces of people and empathized with that energy. Sadly, it was in a community that professed to know so much about God’s love and compassion. It was an eye-opener for me because my witness of Jesus’ presence when I thought of him was significant.

Shunning I understood. Exclusion even. …. The look on my baby sister’s face that was sort of a puckered pout that said I am so sorry that I belong here and you do not. I saw that one a lot as a child. She was six years younger than me and was six herself when I no longer lived at home with her.

That look was on her face the last time I saw her in person, at least before her mom died. Only she was not a child any longer. It was a memory I never wanted to bring to recollection, much less manifestation again.

We all have a role to play for Christ. We agreed to it before we came. We have no one to blame for our experiences other than ourselves for understood and choose the circumstances that we would go through.

That fly on the wall has a significant purpose and place in humanity. It gives support and buffers others who are going through their agreed-to circumstances. This, too, is part of the agreement that we had.

There are so many willing to reach out and assist us, even (or maybe especially) when we feel alone. People have been sent to help us through our challenges.

They may be physical or non-physical. They may have lived on this earth previously or not. We can feel them and receive comfort and encouragement from them if we will give them a chance.

Spirit will tell you the why’s if you are willing to listen and trust the voice and understanding that comes to you. Friedrich Nietzsche said ‘He who has a why to live for can bear almost any how.’ I bear witness that if you learn to trust the still small voice inside your mind and heart you will have an understanding and the potential to receive the peace of heaven. I say potential, only because, your willingness to accept it is required.

More than this, we are heavenly, divine beings of energy that are not capable of dying and our inner being knows this. I believe these roles we have played that we call lives will someday make up the full character of the awakened Christ. This Christ who is the source of our greatest joy.

Till next time, Namaste~

God Bless Us Each and Every ONE






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Strange Things Happen In This World

2007, that is when I noticed the attention of an older man at the singles group I attended. His attention was special and loving. He was a warm, big-hearted family man, whose loving wife had passed several years before. We had chats and visits through email and on the phone. He touched my heart in a special way.

A family is something that seemed to have alluded me and yet, in my conversations with him, I felt so welcome and cared for. I told him so. And it was not just fatherly affection or friendship on his part. I know the signs of a man who has a physical/romantic interest in me. I even wrote a special poem for him. One of the few romantic poems I have ever written. He backed off when I shared it of course.

He would not bring himself to acknowledge what we had, not even on a visit some 2 years later when we kneeled across the temple altar for the proxy marriage ceremony. I sensed a lot of things that day as well, but we never discussed the previous affection. It seems that friends we would remain even though the conversation was no longer to be enjoyed.

Ten years later and a few weeks ago he crossed my mind in a casual thought, not once, but two or three times. Out of the blue it seemed.

And then, just a day or two after my return to South Dakota I saw an email from a source that I am no longer attached to. It was the announcement of a funeral for this dear person. I was startled but I did not look further at the email that evening, though I saved it with a star.

The next morning I went to locate it and it was gone. I thought maybe I had not saved it after all and looked in the trash, but it was not there.

I know that those on the other side have access to electrical energies and computers. I was not supposed to have gotten that email but I believe he wanted me to know where he was and that he was nearby if I should need him.

This understanding was whispered to me in the language of knowing that I have come to recognize as the Holy Spirit. And I do feel my friend close by and I feel the comfort that I felt so long ago in his company.

It gives me comfort and assurance at this time in my life to know that I can be aware of these things and that I can know by the power of The Spirit within me that I am on the path that I am supposed to be on according to God’s design.

I double checked for his obituary online and it was there. I was on the road back to the Midwest when he passed over. The timing, the meaning, and the reminder of; who he is and what we were is sweet and precious to me.

The signs of those on the other side are all around us. And they want to make their presence known. It is a joy and great privilege to be aware of these things and the special people that have been in my life that seem to have left but are ever so close.

These kinds of things have been prophesied of and need to be embraced and celebrated.

Till next time, Namaste~

God Bless Us Each and Every ONE

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