It has been a tough go this year with the death of my daughter and the new things that I am learning. I somehow sense that this is something that I must do to heal and continue in my evolution so I will write and seek to continue to understand what appears in my frame of awareness. I did get the series on makeup revised and put into book form. It can be found at Amazon.com under the book section and Christa-Ann Faith Godsdaughter as the author. I gave it the title of Story of My Life. It is the 3rd Volume of Portrait of a Harlot/Saint. My books are currently available only on Kindle.
I am currently in process of putting up the 4th Volume entitled Evolution of Christa-Ann which I will need to do in multiple editions to be able to bring it out. I have been living and writing this story since 2006. It is challenging for me to go back and in a sense relive some of it. And yet there is healing in that. (See this wonderful article I found on the benefits of writing your history http://well.blogs.nytimes.com/author/tara-parker-pope/)
I even had a dream about it this morning. The details are not important but from the dream I got the impression that the writing has bearing across the generations and serves a purpose if only to allow all people’s to have the witness that it is not the circumstances that fill our lives that give it meaning but how we evolve in and with those circumstances, those presumably favorable as well as those that we would rather forgo.
Do we allow them to trap or bury us or do we allow them to enlighten and build us? It may often appear that we have little choice in the matter but this is something that I do not believe is validated. How we perceive our experience, even if we call it real or not is based on our decisions.
I suspect circumstances are there to test our faith in believing that which is real that may not be perceived in the moment. What else gives us the courage to go on? What else allows us to go through the challenges that we face on a daily basis? I pray that as I reveal some of my circumstances and my journey that they will be used by the universe to lift the consciousness of mankind and not to weigh it down.
As I write I am transfigured…Google search gives me:
Synonyms: transform, transmute, change, alter, and metamorphose;
informal transmogrify “the glow of the sunrise transfigured the whole landscape”
Transform into something more beautiful or elevated.
“The world is made luminous and is transfigured”
I felt nervous putting that word out there so I had to look it up. And I will say it again, as I write I am transfigured and made into something the same yet even more refined. I look forward to the journey.
God Bless Us One and All
In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.