I am Writing Again…

It has been a tough go this year with the death of my daughter and the new things that I am learning. I somehow sense that this is something that I must do to heal and continue in my evolution so I will write and seek to continue to understand what appears in my frame of awareness. I did get the series on makeup revised and put into book form. It can be found at Amazon.com under the book section and Christa-Ann Faith Godsdaughter as the author. I gave it the title of Story of My Life. It is the 3rd Volume of Portrait of a Harlot/Saint. My books are currently available only on Kindle.

I am currently in process of putting up the 4th Volume entitled Evolution of Christa-Ann which I will need to do in multiple editions to be able to bring it out. I have been living and writing this story since 2006. It is challenging for me to go back and in a sense relive some of it. And yet there is healing in that. (See this wonderful article I found on the benefits of writing your history http://well.blogs.nytimes.com/author/tara-parker-pope/)

I even had a dream about it this morning. The details are not important but from the dream I got the impression that the writing has bearing across the generations and serves a purpose if only to allow all people’s to have the witness that it is not the circumstances that fill our lives that give it meaning but how we evolve in and with those circumstances, those presumably favorable as well as those that we would rather forgo.

Do we allow them to trap or bury us or do we allow them to enlighten and build us? It may often appear that we have little choice in the matter but this is something that I do not believe is validated. How we perceive our experience, even if we call it real or not is based on our decisions.

I suspect circumstances are there to test our faith in believing that which is real that may not be perceived in the moment. What else gives us the courage to go on? What else allows us to go through the challenges that we face on a daily basis? I pray that as I reveal some of my circumstances and my journey that they will be used by the universe to lift the consciousness of mankind and not to weigh it down.

As I write I am transfigured…Google search gives me:

Synonyms: transform, transmute, change, alter, and metamorphose;
informal transmogrify “the glow of the sunrise transfigured the whole landscape”
Transform into something more beautiful or elevated.
“The world is made luminous and is transfigured”

I felt nervous putting that word out there so I had to look it up. And I will say it again, as I write I am transfigured and made into something the same yet even more refined. I look forward to the journey.

God Bless Us One and All

In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

Namaste

 

About Yvonne Debra Simmons aka Christa-Ann Faith Godsdaughter

Welcome: Please read at your own risk and be responsible for your own edification and enlightenment. Disclaimer: I no longer consider myself a traditional Christian. I do still follow the Jesus I have come to know and I follow the Holy Spirit, as I recognize Him. I believe that Jesus taught us that we are the Christ and the "I Am" he referred to encompassed all of us. Thus, I believe we have misunderstood many teachings of Jesus. I consider myself a seeker and a believer in humanity and that there is a purpose to being; and an answer as to why we have the suffering that we do. I believe that the Holy Spirit is the instructor we should seek and that means trusting your own heart and being responsible for the guidance we follow. That means learning to hear and heed the voice of warning, instruction, or confirmation. I continue to be a student and an observer. Watching for something that tells me my hypothesis is wrong, or that I need to tweak it in some way. Writing is my greatest instructor these days. When I begin a book I do not know where it will end up or how it will develop, but I do know that I will be a changed person when I finish, knowing myself better. That may just be the best we can hope for in life. I feel as if I have died and gone to heaven numerous times as I have uncovered secrets that I long to share. My body will age and fulfill the contract I made with Christ (meaning all of us) to bare witness of His divine curse of suffering, but my spirit and intellect will bare witness of His innocence and the beauty and expanse of The Father's Love for His Son. To me, this, for now, is the ultimate freedom. I wish no argument with anyone. May we each be true to our own conscience. God bless us every One, Namaste~
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