Today’s review includes the following:
1. (21) I am determined to see things differently.
²What I see now are but signs of disease, disaster and death.
³This cannot be what God created for His beloved Son.
⁴The very fact that I see such things is proof that I do not understand God.
* “AS REAL.” You will see these things but understand that they are not real and that this is only because God IS.
⁵Therefore I also do not understand His Son.
* … when I am walking in ego.
⁶What I see tells me that I do not know who I am.
⁷I am determined to see the witnesses to the truth in me, rather than those which show me an illusion of myself.
* Remember that this illusion includes the Whole Body of Christ and not only you alone.
2. (22) What I see is a form of vengeance.
²The world I see is hardly the representation of loving thoughts.
³It is a picture of attack on everything by everything.
⁴It is anything but a reflection of the Love of God and the Love of His Son.
⁵It is my own attack thoughts that give rise to this picture.
⁶My loving thoughts will save me from this perception of the world, and give me the peace God intended me to have.
* ONLY if I recognize that I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT LOVE. And that GOD ALONE DOES. And that it is God’s Love that must permeate the world because Father Alone is ALL THAT EXISTS and HE Does So AS ALL THAT IS.
* I do walk in that PEACE INSIDE but I cannot give it to you until you are willing to remember that GOD IS for yourself.
3. (23) I can escape from this world by giving up attack thoughts.
* NO, you cannot. NOT without seeing GOD as ALL THAT IS. ONLY THEN will you be willing to forgive Christ for the belief in separation and let go of the life that you thought existed without God.
* Blanking out attack thoughts in your conscious thoughts ONLY makes you think that “YOU are the one doing something” when it is only God that does ANYTHING that is REAL.
* It does not take away the belief in the 90% of your mind, that is in the subconscious, that holds the belief in separation from GOD.
* Only in accepting the Existence of GOD that MUST CONCLUDE that this chaos is delusional and NOT real will allow you to give up attack thoughts AT ANYTHING REAL.
* I swore at the lawyers today who got $65 out of me to ask a question about the Chapter 7 bankruptcy that I want to file because of the way they worded the payment. A “slight of the mind” if you will, rather than a “slight of the hand.” I felt cheated nonetheless.
* I even used the “f-word” in the online chat. I am pretty sure they did this to me once before. But the gaslighting attack is not real. And the money is not gone because everything is shared equally among the Sonship that is Christ. So, I get the last laugh along with Jesus, lol.
* It is not the stuff that I took the kids that I do not feel is welcome, (What do you get for gifts for people you do not know? I picked up some secondhand stuff like I usually have through the years that reminds me of them and that I think they will like.) It is ME that I do not feel is welcome because I KNOW THAT GOD IS NOT WELCOME. Shoot, even Christ was talked about but what the SHIT IS CHRIST WITHOUT GOD? The One Who Has the Authority to claim all are real and equal?
* GOD is EVERYTHING.
²Herein lies salvation, and nowhere else.
* It is easy to be convinced that the Course does not speak of God’s Existence. It was taught in metaphysical terms and not forthright for fifty years. It was taught to take away the existence of us all.
* Breathe.
* “Walking away, with a smile,” cannot be said to be without attack because you believe you are better than them. Have you been true to who you are or who they are?
* That is one reason why I do not trust a smile. Or people. I trust God Who IS the ONLY THING THAT IS REAL.
³Without attack thoughts I could not see a world of attack.
* The kids do not understand that I cannot play the games of “got you last” OR “my blank is bigger than yours” anymore. And GOD is the ONLY ONE WHO GETS RID OF IT.
* I do to want to hurt them and without GOD’s REALITY being accepted what else can I do? I am saying that it does not matter what I do or say because the ego they worship will attack them regardless, because that is WHAT IT DOES. In GOD, the One Original Universal Creator we each are allowed existence and JOY. The ego does not allow that!
* It is God’s Words I speak. It is God’s Love I try to share. Egos will NOT Acknowledge HYMN. They look at me and see a shell that they have dressed up and called mom who is going off the deep end. I WOULD MUCH RATHER THAT THEY SAW GOD.
* THE SAME GOES FOR EVERYONE ELSE.
⁴As forgiveness allows love to return to my awareness, I will see a world of peace and safety and joy.
* I don’t know. I know the feeling of false affection. It sucks. I know the feeling of confusion on the part of those in the room. That can hurt. I know the hope that we as Sons of God can get along but you know what? I don’t BELIEVE in any of that nor do I believe that it is real.
* I happen to believe in GOD and that ONLY HE IS THE LOVE THAT FLOWS BETWEEN AND THROUGH US. That’s it. All the rest is camouflage for ego=god mentality that has given us this world of confusion and betrayal and fake shit.
* Even “accepting Christ” does not give me hope anymore.
* GOD, THE FATHER of us ALL needs to be seen and heard and felt.
* Christ is no more than ourselves and has NO POWER, except to make us miserable and bring about a feeling of death and separation.
* I think that this is misstated, “⁴As forgiveness allows love to return to my awareness, I will see a world of peace and safety and joy.”
* I propose that is was meant to state that “I will HAVE WITHIN ME the world in peace and safety and joy.”
* Because that IS what I have today. And THAT is where my Hope, Happiness, Peace, and JOY ARE.
* THIS IS WHAT I WANT TO GIVE TO MY KIDS.
* NOT JUST THE ABILITY TO GET BODIES TOGETHER AND “PRETEND THAT WE ALL GET ALONG” BECAUSE WE ARE ALL GOING TO DIE SOMEDAY!
⁵And it is this I choose to see, in place of what I look on now.
4. (24) I do not perceive my own best interests.
²How could I recognize my own best interests when I do not know who I am?
³What I think are my best interests would merely bind me closer to the world of illusions.
* This is what all “humanity made” resolutions do!
⁴I am willing to follow the Guide God has given me to find out what my own best interests are, recognizing that I cannot perceive them by myself.
* That Guide that God gave you will show you how to let go of all of the things you thought were taking care of you and let you find HYMN once again.
* I can say this because I have gone there.
* Oh, but you can look at my FAT, my lack of interaction with my neighbors, and my single-person bed and tell me “YOU DON’T HAVE THE JOY THAT LIFE CAN BRING EVERYONE WHO JUST LEARNS HOW TO GET ALONG!”
* BULL. YOU CAN HAVE IT.
* I WANT AND NEED GOD THE ONE ORIGINAL UNIVERSAL CREATOR AND FATHER OF US ALL.
5. (25) I do not know what anything is for.
* You DO once you are living by SPIRIT because you know that ego seeks your demise in spirit and anything else it can talk you out of. And you understand that the Consciousness that God Gave you is to choose HYMN so that you might have Eternal Life.
²To me, the purpose of everything is to prove that my illusions about myself are real.
* Believe me, ego is playing his desperate death dance of “you are nothing” inside my head but I know that is what it is because I KNOW THAT GOD IS.
³It is for this purpose that I attempt to use everyone and everything.
* Our egos, individually and collectively, play a lot of games to keep this hidden from us. It says that someone else is attacking us or creating trouble for us.
* And Jesus says this is true as well, because he says that there is more than one mind in the world of ego that we pull back together into one as we enter the understanding of the Atonement. He says that in the world of ego, we can do real harm (or at least what we believe to be real because the ego itself is real to us) and that there is where correction must take place. It is here in the ego’s world that the son has allowed the ego to replace God.
* This is who we listen to, whose eyes we see through and whose logic we believe.
* It is ONLY in the Atonement that GOD is recognized as FATHER with a Close and Constant Relationship with the Son as a Whole and INDIVIDUALLY, as well.
“²To me, the purpose of everything is to prove that my illusions about myself are real.”
⁴It is for this that I believe the world is for.
⁵Therefore I do not recognize its real purpose.
* The real purpose is for GOD to be glorified by the Witness of HIS Existence from His Son. In return, the Son receives the Glory of the Father, as a Whole.
⁶The purpose I have given the world has led to a frightening picture of it.
⁷Let me open my mind to the world’s real purpose by withdrawing the one I have given it, and learning the truth about it.
(ACIM, W-55.1:1–5:7)
To Father be ALL Glory and Praise Given AS His Son, debi.
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