Chapter Seven

Afterward: Now What?
Even when flying above the clouds it is easy to dip too close to the mountaintop.

From the beginning of the trip to the end, I got to listen to the radio, Serius XM. Love it!. I had lots of choices but they spoke of things that did not remind me of who I am, nor did they make me think of Christ. Today I would say that I heard the message of the “Christ Guilty Conscience” filled with joys that end and sorrows and longings we experience along the way.

Like a child who has lost his way, we sing of things that appear to have priority in our existence at the moment, forgetting that our Father and complete well-being are so very close by.

I am not trying to denounce all the incredible talent that has been shared over the years, nor am I saying that they have not helped humanity cope and express its joys and sorrows. What I am saying, is that I believe that there is a higher plateau that we might reach for and that we are meant to be a part of.

It was after crossing those incredible mountains at a rest stop in Colorado that I wrote fourteen songs that helped me express the wonder, majesty, and awe that I had experienced on the road that day. It was an effort to process the overwhelm from the breath-taking beauty of the Rocky Mountains. I want to share those with you as I write this chapter.

Beauty and Majesty of the Earth

Ocean Waves
Sea Weed
This is God
This is the power of God
This is the power of Me


When people live in a world of hierarchy they are intimidated by someone with the strength of character because they feel inferior (and sadly, often inside they attack themselves even as they strike out with catty remarks to the other).

It is not the fault of the person, it is part of the poison of the illusion of separation.

We also feel that if someone has confidence they must be uppity or be judging us. This is not because they are judging us. It is because we are judging ourselves as inferior on some level.

Might I call this the “Christ’s Guilty Conscience” level, which I also equate with ego? 

Forgive me for speaking of Christ in the context of a negative. Remember that positive/negative is ego creation, for only God exists and God is Good. God is Love. All there is is love.

The ego (Christ’s Guilty Conscience) has created a self-punishing existence that is unreal.

Even romance and copulation (sex) are weak attempts to make a mockery of what we believe that we are.

Each generation hoping the next will be better by allowing them to stand on our shoulders and backs or merely working for the survival of the fittest as we simply prey upon our own psychologically or physiologically. We all do it in some form or another because we believe, erroneously, that this is the extent of our existence.

We think that our sense of inferiority comes from outside ourselves, society, peers; or if we cannot identify anyone right now it must have one from our parents or caregivers from our formative years.

What if it actually comes to us in our “fabrication”, in our subconscious DNA and the role that we play in this dream/illusion/nightmare of Christ’s to give us a witness of the need for all the punishment and suffering that we place upon ourselves?

This to testify of the reality of our separateness.

Your role may be that of a girl who uses cutting to claim power in a world where she feels she has no power. Or maybe you are an educated and hard-working man who has reached all of his goals and faces the reality that he cannot take his possessions with him once he leaves his body.

Maybe you are a child who is experiencing health issues or hunger with a fierce gnawing, rather than witnessing that God Is and that you have all that you desire.

Maybe you are longing for a relationship that has not manifested. Whatever your role, circumstances, or situation, I believe it was created by Christ with your permission.                                    


Everything that has any form of manifestation
is a manifestation of Christ.

All form of emotion, thought, action,
is a manifestation of Christ.

He is the only relationship that we need to get right.
Then all else falls into place and is understood.

I hope that the songs I wrote in simplicity are so that with repetition the message of its truth will be taught by the Spirit.


As much as the Law of Attraction teaches that what we desire we will experience in our future, I believe Christ still blocks the way ultimately, or at least until we release Christ from His Guilty Conscience.

One reality that proves this in this linear world is that we are still going to die.

The witness that Christ holds the key and Jesus will help us find it has burned in my heart since I was a small child.

Thinking about the conference I attended, I recall that only one person clapped when Brendon said God helped him with things, it was me.

I was surprised at that, yet with it, I got a personal response from Brendan himself, as he looked the other way of course.

He said thank you to me for acknowledging his respect for God here.

I thought it odd and powerful that as a group we did not seem comfortable to acknowledge God in our lives.

Interestingly none of us clapped when he spoke of Tony Robbins either. Sadly that included me this time. Tony has helped me and others in many ways over the years and I would have adored seeing him there, yet I did not clap for the man. How crazy is that!

There seemed to be an interesting undertow happening in the room. Each one was there passionate about something and yet we did not meld or even mix, contrary to what we seemed to suggest to Brendon from what I could tell. We each had our story but the gelling did not seem to happen.

A beautiful lady beside me made a point of playing with her phone that had a photo of her and Depok Chopra on it. When I did not comment she disappeared.

It seemed like we were all looking for our niche but did not really have anything that drew us together as a whole. This made me sad. The facade was there of music, hype, and volume, it felt like a concert and had a fun energy. I just did not feel what I had been hoping for.

Sadly, there have often been times when I felt like that in church over the years.

Where is the ability to speak of what we really are that will allow us to let our guard down and let others know who we really are and what we have to share?

Understanding and acknowledging “Christ’s Guilty Conscience” may allow us to open that door to one another.

I believe it is a sign of the peer pressure or desire, even among those who are supposed to be so enlightened, (myself included) to wait on the affirmation of others first.

We tend to be afraid to be true to our own personal witness of something. 

I do not think that we should be concerned with this though.

There is a timing factor that the Spirit guides us with. The shift in understanding will not be altered fully, or should I say significantly, until there is a percentage of individuals who are ready to receive it.

That time is coming rapidly, even as Jesus said some 2000 years ago. We may rely on the Spirit’s wisdom for the real unveiling.

We can take the time to look within ourselves and see The Christ and make room for Him to reveal Himself within us, for He is there. He is what we truly are and all of creation calls out.


See me!
Know me!
I am
I am
I am
I am God!

See me!

Know me!

I am

I am

I am

I am You!

I do not really understand why the readers of  A Course In Miracles have missed this concept. I suspect it is because of the way I approached it and because I did not listen to others views of the teachings.

(I was reading in ACIM today, September 7, 2018, five months after I had completed the writing of this book. I see now why it has been missed. Brothers and sisters, I do not claim to have all understanding. Though what I understand grows in leaps and bounds. We are in an insane situation and we are awakening. I simply seek to bear testimony of what I understand today and look forward to what I will learn moving forward.)


As I think of what I have had and what I have not had, I sometimes feel low.

When I remember who I truly am, I recall that all that has ever been experienced by anyone is mine.

All the trauma and all the joy, all the lack and all the abundance, it is mine, as I acknowledge that I am The Christ, as are all others.

All the closeness and all the aloneness felt in the world is mine.

And it will all become a dream when we awaken fully to the witness that we are in fact The Whole Complete Christ.


I am nearly over-whelmed
with the beauty and majesty that is creation
~the leading edge~
learned by the Spirit
breathed in as knowledge
Questions all dissipate
and only awe and beauty remain.

There was a time when I understood “going with the flow” to mean being cool and letting life happen.

Today I understand it to be a very intentional choice to direct one’s thoughts into creation and the light of truth instead of feeding the fabrication.

Studying Abraham Hicks did a lot to help me understand this. He taught us the Law of Attraction, even though it is claimed by other sources.

I believe the Law of Attraction is a current resurrection of the Law of the Covenant.

This is a Law given by Christ (Jehovah), through Moses, to His children and useful here, in the illusion.

With God, things are as you would have them be for there is no time, there is only being. It is here in this density place that we perceive choice and that we may choose what we will participate in.

Forget not that we have come with the instructions from “Christ’s Guilty Conscience” to play a role of unworthiness and suffering.

Because we are also of The Father we have the capacity to counter that or make it so that the roles we play do not define us and therefore do not continue to confuse us and keep us in the chain of suffering.

Christ will be set free as we show Him that His “sin” (or confusion about being separated from God) has no effect on us.

Abraham Hick’s work will do a lot to bring comfort to humanity and allow them to handle the psychological chaos that will come as we enter into an understanding of who we really are and the pendulum swing of extremes that may occur with that understanding.


Talking flowers,
singing flowers,
can you hear them?
Listen well.
The breeze,
the breath,
the warmth of the sunshine.
Singing are they,
just for you.


Mental health is a huge issue.

It was brought up for me with the shooting in Las Vegas just before I came through there on my way home from the conference.

It is brought up again as about the third or fourth shooting has occurred as I close the writing of this book.

I plead with you to give serious consideration to what I have shared because from what I have seen humanity does not have any real answer to mental illness.

All things entailing mental illness, depression and the use of anti-depressants to cope with life and keep up that “happy face”, addictions by all of us to endure the inhuman demands we place on ourselves and each other, power-wielding through racist acts or anti-racist angst against the supposed oppressing other, all of it bears witness of  “Christ’s Guilty Conscience” that believes we are worthy of punishment and death and not One Whole Son before God, The Ultimate and Eternal Father of The Christ and all of Creation.

We cannot consider ourselves lesser than or greater than another and be in alignment with our true status as a part of All That Is.


Euphoric orgasm
it all
the true understanding of Christ.
Let it Go
Let it Go

Lord Jesus Christ wants us to know that we are each Lord (creator of our reality), enter your name _____ (because you are a beloved part of The Son of God), Christ (He is your Father, as He is Jesus’).

You are capable of making choices and the choices manifest our experience.

The choice that you get to make is very simple.

Will you continue the punishment of Christ or will you embrace the love of God that is the component of what you are at your core.

You will be allowed either choice because God knows there is no truth in the lie, even though it causes great duress as we participate in it.

Your place of worthiness and inheritance awaits you, as the Prodigal Son. And great will be the rejoicing when you recognize where you have gone and that it is possible to return home.


There is order in the chaos,

(chorus, softly) A choice we make in every breath!

in the creation of the manifestation.

(chorus, softly) A choice we make in every breath!

Though not understood by the logical/ linear

(chorus, softly) A choice we make in every breath!

thinking of the human mind.

(chorus, softly) A choice we make in every breath!

We can end the suffering, it is a choice.

(chorus, bold and strong on the third repeat of the whole)

A choice we make in every breath!

There is nothing wrong with feeling entitled. We are. We just need to get “Christ’s Guilty Conscience” acknowledged and healed. Then we will have the abundance and prosperity that we seek all over the world and throughout galaxies’.

There will be no need to harm others or to puff ourselves up because we have been down-trodden by others or because we “know” we are not truly worthy of all that is handed to us so freely.

I will never figure out or resolve all of the incongruities in my life. Nor will anyone else.

To try and make sense out of this world is futile. It has no promise.

Only in Christ, is there promise of relationships that last, first with self, then with God, then with other parts of the Self that we each represent.

In this world, we want to claim family or country or race as our identity.

Each of these things is a part of our existence to allow us to meet God as we try to understand who we are and maybe only that!

They are symbolic of our relationship to the Father of Christ. And while they are to be embraced with joy and great attention, they are not the essence of what or who we are.

God does not give good to some and evil to others.

We are ONE and worthy of all that The Father has.

Think of a rogue god that has split personalities and you will begin to have a glimpse of what we really represent.

The spiritual view of needing another person (Savior) to lay all the problems at his feet is a temporary resolve at best.

It is still a view that denies our power and encourages us not to think for ourselves.

It may calm the wild thoughts and frustrations of the mind for a while, but it does not give a logical explanation to the question of why the suffering is there in the first place.

Christ is a jealous God for He feels unworthy.

His Father is not a jealous God.

He has not even blinked His eye. He has no concern His Son is not whole and pure and perfect. Christ is the one confused. 


Mighty tree, you witness to me of change,

transformation, of life, and of death.

Not an ending,

a continuation of being in whatever form

is laid aside in the escrow

of the vortex

of my creation.

We are One

my friend

my heartbeat

my dream of awakening.

About Christa-Ann Faith Godsdaughter

There was a time when I thought that I spoke out from a minute corner of the world. Speaking about the shadows and darkness I found myself in. Then there was a time when I thought that I shouted with the fury of a mother pleading for help to protect her babes. There came a time of introspection and circumstance that had me realizing that I must reach out for myself...if I was to help those I felt I had been sent here to guide...meaning my children, or so I thought. The time has now come where I understand that I speak literally for all creation in all time and all dimensions and all thoughts, past present and future. This would apply to earth and its substance but in no way would be limited to this planet or even this galaxy. What I have to share is for all creation. ALL, THE WHOLE OF CREATION, IN ITS ENTIRE CIRCUMFERENCE OUT FROM GOD AND BACK ROUND TO HIM AND BEYOND!
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